Posts by Deidra

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victim

by Alex Delta in

are we just a victim of victims?

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Sometimes I feel l like a victim since I was born into JW. Sometimes I get depressed as a result of feeling like a victim. I do sometimes feel like a victim of losing the ones I love. I lost everyone. However, I pick myself up and go one with my life feeling grateful that I left that life behind. Most people can call themselves victims of something. The loss of our family and friends is the cross that we have to bear

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How have you benefited by leaving the WT Organization?

by Quirky1 in

this is just a curious study.

i would love to get everyone's input on how each individual or couple has benefited from leaving the jw/wtbs as well as how their life is currently vs. being part of the organization.. eyes wide open .

quirky1 .

Deidra

When I was a JW I used to look at happy "wordly" people and feel envious. The happy ones looked so free, they enjoyed life and had an inner happiness that I could see. My only consulation was the fact that they were going to die at armageddon. It made me feel better about living my miserable, fake life. NOW, I am one of those happy, free "worldly" people. FREE AT LAST, FREE AT LAST. THANK GOD ALMIGHTY, I'M FREE AT LAST. From where I sit, life is good.

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How did you spend the memorial?

by sinis in

personally, i stayed at home (my wife went), made steaks, drank beer, and watched several vulgar/demonic movies in the world of the jw's (halloween, the eye, hitman, no country for old men, saw iv).

i later went over to my mother in laws house to meet up with some other in laws - who i saved from the jw's - and talked about how the memorial was a waste of f@cking time... then drank more beer waiting for my wife to come back...

Deidra

bearish, i don't understand that myself. If you're not blinded anymore, why pretend to be? For other human beings? I think not me!

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How did you spend the memorial?

by sinis in

personally, i stayed at home (my wife went), made steaks, drank beer, and watched several vulgar/demonic movies in the world of the jw's (halloween, the eye, hitman, no country for old men, saw iv).

i later went over to my mother in laws house to meet up with some other in laws - who i saved from the jw's - and talked about how the memorial was a waste of f@cking time... then drank more beer waiting for my wife to come back...

Deidra

Well we were at my in-laws as well-all weekend. Laughing, eating, drinking, cussing, singing, watching videos and movies, and more drinking. Sunday - a wonderful easter feast, more laughing, eating, drinking, singing, hugging and kissing family. It was wonderful. My In-laws are God sent - Wonderful weekend.

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Well, we went out after the memorial....

by megawatt in

after the memorial, we decided to go out and grab a bite to eat.

my family and i went out with a witness couple that we consider close friends.

for the last couple of weeks, i've expressed my views re: wts to my good friend openly and turns out he had the same thoughts and doubts as well.

Deidra

I agree, what a story. Good luck and stay strong. I'm glad you stand up for what you believe just like the JWs do. They defend their doctrines to death. We should do the same. I can sympathize with you when you said you felt lonely. If you stick with your guns, the JWs will make you feel lonely more times than you can count. Stick in there. Your "spiritual freedom" is worth it -- leaving spiritual slavery and bondage. When you're ready, pray that God will direct you in the right direction. He did it for me, he'll do it for you. The witnesses should be ashamed of themselves, but they're not. Those two women, their behavior was just downright ugly. Being a wife myself, I would never talk negatively about my husband to others. I love him too much. Good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks for representing us and speaking your mind.

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My Memorial Experience

by oneairhead in

first of all i noticed that this just seemed like another meeting.

when we drove in we had people parking us in strange ways, not to mention that the amount of cars there was just as many as a highly attended sunday meeting and we do fine then when we have no one to park us.

they had more seats set out and there were no new ones just people who had not come in awhile.

Deidra

VanillaMocha73

Yep, lots of teenage pregnancy. It's an epidemic. Alot of girls around me (JW) got pregnant around 18, either had abortions or became a single parent eyed by all JW onlookers. Lots of us were elders' daughters, including myself. Maybe they shouldn't of kept us out of sex education class.

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First missed memorial

by metaspy in

this past weekend (as we all know) was the memorial for jws.. this year marked a huge step for me.. i didn't go.

ever since my mom got baptized, i think i have gone every year.. .

when my mom asked if i went, i simply told her no.. i had gone over my aunt's house and didn't attend the memorial.. she gave me an earful, but i didn't find it intimidating.. .

Deidra

Congratulations. Hopefully you truly don't feel guilty. I'm glad you didn't lie. You can't live your life for them forever. Release yourself and enjoy life sweetie. Lying means that you're not true to yourself. I'm glad you're one of the few who are able to stand firm in your decision. It's tough, good luck.

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Wonderful Anti-Witness Opportunity at Work...

by AK - Jeff in

i realize that i am out of time - gotta go.

but i shall return and post the experience i had on saturday.

in the meantime, anyone have any good anti-memorial stories?

Deidra

Great job. You chose your words well

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My life - A brief history. Part 3 (conclusion)

by Galileo in

this is part 3 and the conclusion to my journey out.

part 1 can be found here, and part 2 is here.. .

truth.

Deidra

Thank you for sharing your story with us. As long as you stay away from the JW, then you will heal in time. Congratulations. It sounds like you have your head on straight. You just have to deal with the feelings.

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Did Prayer work for you, or not?

by gaiagirl in

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jws, and christians in genreral, are taught that god answers prayers of sincere believers.

on the other hand, there is a popular bumpersticker which reads "nothing fails like prayer".. what has been your experience in this regard?

did god answer your most heartfelt prayers, or were they ignored?.

Deidra

I strongly agree with Honesty. Prayer worked for me. I sincerely prayed to God for clarity. I explained to God in my prayers that if he would tell me exactly what to do spiritually then I would do it even if it meant going back to the Kingdumb Hall (which I didn't want to do but was willing if he clearly told me to). I hadn't been going to the meetings for years. After that prayer I decided to go to the Memorial just to see if I felt any kind of "spark." My prayers were answered that Memorial night. The service felt so empty. I had been away for years just to return to the same robotic behavior. I thought "Why are only these special people that are taking emblems? Who do they think they are? They are no better than me. I started reading my bible and to my pleasant surprise, I didn't need the Society interpreting it for me. No Watchtower or Awake, just my own brain. I attended church with a friend and was stunned. I was saved not long after my first visit to a church. What are the chances that the first church I attend ever in my life would be the place with answers for me? I'd say God answered my prayers. Life has never been sweeter than when you see clearly.