Krett, thank you for detailed answers. I have great respect for anyone who is willing to do such an in depth spiritual self-assessment.
It is my hope (and it is my literal prayer) that you will one day pray to become born again. When you do, the Holy Spirit will imperceptibly regenerate your spirit and make it alive to Christ (until you are born again your spirit is dead in sin--Ephesians 2:1). When you pray to be born again the Holy Spirit comes to live inside you (Romans 8:9, 1 Corinthians 3:16, 2 Timothy 1:14, James 4:5, Ephesians 4:30) and He makes the Bible understandable in a way that was not possible before.
Your comment made me laugh out loud. After being born again no one will be yet be perfect. Not even ex-JWs. However, after being born again the Holy Spirit will remind you to pray for forgiveness when you do sin, and God always instantly forgives us when we do (1 John 1:9).
Blessings to you.
As a side note, something fun to think about: God is a holy spirit without a body. Before Jesus was born (begotten) as a human to Mary, He too was a holy spirit without a body. John 1:18 says that before Jesus was born to Mary He, as a holy spirit, was in the bosom (the very center) of God, also a holy spirit. Two persons existing as one spirit?
Again, blessings.