Lately I don't know what to believe. People tell me all sorts of different opinions. I seem to feel a constant feeling of dread and anxiety. The possibility of god existing scares me but so does the possibility of him not. I want to move on with my life but I just can't. I'm 16 so my parents still force me to go to the meetings and out in service. As time goes by my mental health just seems to be spiraling more out of control and being forced to go do jw crap just makes it worse and worse. I just want to feel like I have a stable future but it all just seems so impossible. I think about death often, how easy it would be to just slip away. I need help. I can't live like this.
BlackWolf
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Im always afraid
by BlackWolf inpeople tell me all sorts of different opinions.
i seem to feel a constant feeling of dread and anxiety.
the possibility of god existing scares me but so does the possibility of him not.
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not going to school
by Sabin ini don't know if it is the same where you are but where i live it is a common practise of jdub`s to withdraw their kid`s from school at about year 8 even younger in some cases.
they say they are being home schooled & of cause they do cover a certain amount of school topics.
don't get me wrong i`m not saying that it is wrong to home school a youngster, especially if they are being bullied or suffering in some way, but the jdub`s don't do it for this purpose, oh no their kid`s are out on the field service during what would be school hours.
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BlackWolf
Well I'm 16 and have homeschooled for most of my life. I've traveled around a bit and it seems like the majority of jws homeschool (more like unschool) their kids. Its really quite sad. I've never met a happy homeschooled jw. Its extremely isolating. :( -
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i feel more confused than ever
by BlackWolf inwell i know i've been posting a lot of topics like this lately and i'm sorry if i sound whiny or annoying.
my parents were asking me why i was so upset lately and i ended up just telling them the whole truth.
i told them i don't believe in god or the bible because i don't have any evidence of anything.
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BlackWolf
Thanks everyone. When I said I didn't believe in god or the bible I really meant more like I wasn't sure because the more I read the bible the more ridiculous it sounds to me. But of course I still doubt myself sometimes. -
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i feel more confused than ever
by BlackWolf inwell i know i've been posting a lot of topics like this lately and i'm sorry if i sound whiny or annoying.
my parents were asking me why i was so upset lately and i ended up just telling them the whole truth.
i told them i don't believe in god or the bible because i don't have any evidence of anything.
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BlackWolf
One thing my parents say that confuses me is that Jehovah allows us to suffer to prove that humans can't rule themselves? I said that if god was really all powerful and loving he wouldn't of let Satan tempt eve with that stupid tree in the first place!! -
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i feel more confused than ever
by BlackWolf inwell i know i've been posting a lot of topics like this lately and i'm sorry if i sound whiny or annoying.
my parents were asking me why i was so upset lately and i ended up just telling them the whole truth.
i told them i don't believe in god or the bible because i don't have any evidence of anything.
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i feel more confused than ever
by BlackWolf inwell i know i've been posting a lot of topics like this lately and i'm sorry if i sound whiny or annoying.
my parents were asking me why i was so upset lately and i ended up just telling them the whole truth.
i told them i don't believe in god or the bible because i don't have any evidence of anything.
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BlackWolf
Well I know I've been posting a lot of topics like this lately and I'm sorry if I sound whiny or annoying. My parents were asking me why I was so upset lately and I ended up just telling them the whole truth. I told them I don't believe in god or the bible because I don't have any evidence of anything. Of course they told me " but the evidence is all around us". I asked them about all of the child abuse cases and they said " where all imperfect humans". I told them I didn't like feeling controlled and they told me "where not controlled we chose this" and that I sound like an apostate!! I feel like crap now and more afraid and confused than ever. I don't know what to do. I could live my whole life being a jw even though I hate it and possibly live forever or I could live my life doing what I love and possibly be killed at armeggedon. What should I do?? Should I believe what parents say or what the so called "apostates" think? All of my old fears are returning and I feel so doomed :( -
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Samuel Herd 3 min video - the most misogynistic words I ever heard from a "godly man"
by paradisebeauty inhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?t=72&v=9vvqxf9uwu0.
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BlackWolf
Ya know earlier today I asked my sister why she thinks women have to be submissive to men and her only response was "we were just created to be that way". The twisted way jw's view women makes me sick!! Even my own mother who is a very devoted jw complains about how she wishes she could have a say on congregation matters. I remember all the times when I was younger that I wished I was a boy but now that I've realized ttatt I am proud of my womanhood!!! -
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i made my sister cry :(
by BlackWolf inso lately i've felt so frustrated and overwhelmed that i had to tell someone how i felt.
my parents were gone so i decided to talk to my sister.
we've always been close so i thought i could trust her because we have talked about it before.
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Thank you all for the advice. I realize now that my sister is probably not mature enough to handle this yet ( she just turned 14) but id hate more than anything to see her waste her entire life for something so stupid. -
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i made my sister cry :(
by BlackWolf inso lately i've felt so frustrated and overwhelmed that i had to tell someone how i felt.
my parents were gone so i decided to talk to my sister.
we've always been close so i thought i could trust her because we have talked about it before.
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BlackWolf
So lately I've felt so frustrated and overwhelmed that I had to tell someone how I felt. My parents were gone so I decided to talk to my sister. We've always been close so I thought I could trust her because we have talked about it before. I calmly told her that I didn't think I wanted to be a jw anymore and she started freaking out and crying. I tried to reason with her but she wouldn't listen. She said that she had always hoped that we could be in paradise together. I feel so guilty now. I should've never brought it up. She looked so scared. At least she agreed not to tell our parents. What should I do?
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I Rolled My Eyes When...
by Iown Mylife intoday as i had the old timey music playing and the song love potion no.
9 came on, i remembered being reproved by a brother at a get together when i sang along to that same song.
oh that song is spiritistic, blah blah.
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BlackWolf
My parents think all of the music I listen to is spiritistic but of course they don't know that I still listen to it anyway. There's really nothing that bad about what I listen to but of course wearing black= satanist lol. They seem to be afraid of anything that is different. I can't wait until I'm 18 and I can actually go to concerts.