Posts by BlackWolf

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Feeling very lonely

by BlackWolf in

jw
friends

the past few months i've been feeling really depressed and kind of hopeless.

the few people that actually were a little bit friendly to me at the hall recently moved away, and i'm feeling like more of an outcast than i already was.

every meeting i just stand by myself by the wall and nobody cares, i feel really lonely and unloved.

I appreciate everyone's advice. I usually try to stay positive and pretend to be happy, but sometimes it really gets to me. A few weeks ago I tried to talk to my dad about how I didn't have any friends and he completely freaked out about it and started hitting himself. I wasn't trying to blame him or anything, but I guess he took it that way. My mom told me never to talk about it again. I'm pretty sure he's a little mentally unstable, and it scares me sometimes.

I know everyone isn't out to get me, it's really just a few people that have treated me badly and spread some false rumors. I try to be a nice person and I'm never mean back, and i'm sure some of the other teens feel the same way as me. I guess the stress of jw life can just bring out the worst in people sometimes.

I live in the panhandle, so I don't think the storm will hit here, at least I hope :)

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Feeling very lonely

by BlackWolf in

jw
friends

the past few months i've been feeling really depressed and kind of hopeless.

the few people that actually were a little bit friendly to me at the hall recently moved away, and i'm feeling like more of an outcast than i already was.

every meeting i just stand by myself by the wall and nobody cares, i feel really lonely and unloved.

BlackWolf

The past few months I've been feeling really depressed and kind of hopeless. The few people that actually were a little bit friendly to me at the hall recently moved away, and I'm feeling like more of an outcast than I already was. Every meeting I just stand by myself by the wall and nobody cares, I feel really lonely and unloved. :( Idk why people treat me this way because I didn't even do anything wrong.

Anyways I've just been feeling pretty low and I haven't felt motivated to do much schoolwork or anything. I don't even ride horses anymore because the trainer at the barn I went to was really mean and bitchy towards me. I feel like everyone hates me for some reason and that I can't escape. I wish I knew how I could get out of my predicament but it feels meaningless because once my family starts shunning me I will feel even more lonely. Sorry if I sound whiney I just have no one else to talk to.

Also the reason I haven't been too active on here is because I'm afraid of my parents finding out. I overheard my dad threatening to my brothers that he could see what they do on the internet through the router? It scared me at first but he obviously hasn't since he would know that I've been on sites like this. Can he really see the sites that I visit that easily?

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Bunker elder Meme

by aintenoughwiskey in

i noticed this on reddit.

they shouldn't have all the fun.

ill get it started.

BlackWolf

Lol I always thought that guy looked like a total asshole.

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2016 annual meeting

by obarac in

just a few minutes till the start ..... we hope for a news from absalom and wifibandit very soon.. wifibandit, any tread on reddit for am?.

also there were some info about live stream.

any news about that..

BlackWolf

It seems like they've changed all the songs in some way, not just the lyrics to fit "new light" but the music too. But I doubt it will sound any better, their music sucks. I heard that they'll be really fancy and have that shiny paper edging like the Bibles. I'm gonna make sure to order a few and use up their precious funds.

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Perfectionism

by lriddle80 in

do any of you suffer from perfectionism?

i do and it may be the message that jw's put out there.

growing up in that religion, it's all about doing more, field service, meeting attendance, study, conventions, etc.

BlackWolf

Ive felt the same way sometimes, like nothing I do will ever be good enough for god or my parents. I also have an eating disorder that I struggle with sometimes. But it helps me to go on sites like this that remind me that jws are wrong and that I don't have to be perfect anymore

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Two Brothers Living Together - Never Dated Girls...

by pale.emperor in

in my old congregation there are two brothers (non related) who are in the early 30s.

they've never dated girls.

they're "best friends".

BlackWolf

At a Cong I used to go to, there was an elder and a ministerial servant that lived together, and seemed very close. I thought they were obviously gay, my mom did too, but I guess nobody dared to question.

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Did the flood happen?

by BlackWolf in

so we were talking about noah for our family worship tonight and it ended with a little debate between me and my parents about how the flood was possible.

you know, where did the water come from, how did all the animals fit, etc.

of course it led nowhere and my parents came up with some strange theories like that there was "an expanse of water in the sky" and that's where all the water came from.

BlackWolf

Well at least whenever I begin to fear armageddon again or doubt myself I can think of this kind of ridiculous stuff. :) Unfortunately there seems to be no hope for my parents, even though I know deep down they aren't really stupid. I can never seem to understand how people can be so against thinking logically. I feel sorry for them sometimes. Regardless, it's an interesting topic to think about.

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Did the flood happen?

by BlackWolf in

so we were talking about noah for our family worship tonight and it ended with a little debate between me and my parents about how the flood was possible.

you know, where did the water come from, how did all the animals fit, etc.

of course it led nowhere and my parents came up with some strange theories like that there was "an expanse of water in the sky" and that's where all the water came from.

BlackWolf

So we were talking about Noah for our family worship tonight and it ended with a little debate between me and my parents about how the flood was possible. You know, where did the water come from, how did all the animals fit, etc. Of course it led nowhere and my parents came up with some strange theories like that there was "an expanse of water in the sky" and that's where all the water came from. That the water cycle was different back in the day lol. I think that's BS. So I'm looking for some solid scientific facts as to why this cannot be true. And if you think the flood did happen please explain with scientific facts only!! Thanks in advance.

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I'm getting baptized

by BlackWolf in

jw
friends

i know i've started similar topics before but this time i'm serious.

my parents have been constantly pressuring me and after yesterday's watchtower study they asked me if i was going to be baptized this summer... and i said yes.

i probably should have thought about it more before making a final decision, but they're pretty much forcing me to do it anyway.

BlackWolf

I'm by no means an " obese and unintelligent couch potato" but I don't think joining the military would be good for me. Thanks for the advice anyway. If I joined the military my family would truly view me as demonic and I don't think I could take that. Im sure things will work out somehow, or at least i have to hope.

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Are they either leaving or going full on 'cult mode'? No quarter.

by punkofnice in

it might just be me imagining things.. i hear things from my jw spies.. from all that's being said, it seems to me that the rank and file(tm), are either waking up to the scam and fading/leaving.

they are going full on 'cult mode' and acting like 'spiritual police'.. is it just me and my imagination?

have others noticed this?.

BlackWolf

I have noticed people are acting very strange in my Cong since the convention. They all seem very paranoid and desperate. My mother keeps telling me how the great tribulation is coming any day now and how excited she is. I've told her before that I don't want to be a witness, so I guess she's looking forward to my death? Or maybe she just thinks I've changed my mind? Anyhow, the witnesses are driving me nuts lately! The only "end" in sight is hopefully the end of this stupid cult! I too have noticed that some people have become more inactive and some, like my parents, have just become more insane.