Christopher:
I understand.
For what it's worth, my experience of "God" is that there are no expectations, no demands, no judgments - none of those things come from God.
They come from within ourselves, and from those around us.
It is heart wrenching to have your loved one turn away from you, and to make you feel the interloper in your own home. I don't know if this means the relationship and the living situation are each beyond repair, but I do know that the first step in any life is liking the company you keep when you are alone. You need to value yourself and your needs as equally as you value another's.
Being "alone" can be daunting. Getting your feelings and understanding your needs and vlauing your own self can be a hard row at first, and may require professional therapy.
But do hang on to the fact that your relationship with yourself is primary - without that, you can only be a hollow shell actng out the expectations of others.
And if the one you're with doesn't value you as an individual worthy of equality to themselves, what does that say about your position in their life?
Love -ve