Oh boy, does this decribe me. I tend to get very nervous in social situation. At Apostofest in Dallas I spent most of my time just sitting and watching other people. I did talk some later, but most of the time I was so paranoid and was constantly worrying about what other people thought about me.
There are times when I am around people and I just want to get up and leave. It doesn't happen as much as it used to, but it does happen. The irony is that I am not a loner. I want to be around people, but sometimes I can't control this feeling.
I see a doctor once every two weeks and I take Paxil. That does make me feel better, but still have a long way to go.
"I have so much love to give, but no one to give it to."
William H. Macy - "Magnolia"