It's just a matter of time now before I lose my mom, dad, sisters and brothers. I feel sick about it. But, I made a promise to myself I would really start celebrating everything when my oldest turns 4 cause that is the age they remember things as they get older. I kept true to that starting with the day she turned 4. Even did my version of Easter.
But, doesn't stop me from feeling sad about feeling like its only a matter of time before I get excommunicated... :(