after 5 years away from the borg, it hasnt got any easier.
in fact, in my mind, its got worse.
the pain of losing a mother, father, two sisters and a brother, nieces and nephews, people i loved so dearly, has become ever deeper with every passing day.
welcome to the forum, it takes time but things do get easier. I think making new friends involving yourself in community things will help
to focus on other things. I would suggest reading "Combatting Cult Mind Control" by Steve Hassan. Releasing the fear and guilt is the most
important thing you can do for yourself.
h4o
http://encarta.msn.com/encnet/departments/education_1/default.aspx?page=quiz129&quizid=129>1=27004&qpt=results.
i hope the link works.. it does.
so, in honor of bastille day, please give it a try.. sylvia.
Bonjour comment vas-tu aujourd'hui? Ce test vraiment aspiré pour moi comme je l'ai reçu 2 sur 10 grrrr .... et je suis moitié anglaise. Mes grands-parents ont été couramment en français .. Hello how are you all today? This test really sucked for me as I got 2 out of 10....grrrr and I'm half french. My Grandparents were fluent in French.. h40
Hi and Welcome...
hope4others
this movie is getting a 98 percent approval rating on rotten tomatoes so far.
hell, even the vatican gave its blessing!
(okay, so maybe they approved of hitler, too lol- at least that's what the wt always claimed).
I'm looking forward to the movie, I have watched all the others...I remember my brother inlaw here when we rented one he just squirmed...
you could so see the Wt thinking running through him...hehe
h4o
i know you all are tired of hearing about michael jackson but after seeing this video, i was reminded of the guilt that lingers after the leaving the jw religion.
as i understand it, his primary reason for leaving was because latoya was df'd and he didn't like having to chose between religion and family.
sounds familiar?.
Christmas is a hard ting to get past after leaving...I've been gone 10 years, it was only this year I put a little tree up in my office.
But no where else, I still worried someone would see it...
I can understand how he felt overwhelmed and excited yet feeling a measure of guilt.
h4o
this is such a heavy topic, very encompassing with many of us...i know that i still and perhaps always will, suffer from guilt -- on so many levels.. i just read this quote "guilt has been used as a tool of social control" -- i have also heard that guilt is 'anger with one's self" -- i would love to hear your expressions/etc.
about this subject.
can we ever rid ourselves of guilt?
Guilt is something we carry for a long time. But the longer you are out you find yourself resorting to things unknowing less. I have caught myself many times and others have pointed it out. After I read Steve Hassans "Combatting Cult Mind Control" it was a light bulb going off. I no longer feel the fear or guilt, I only feel total freedom now. H4o
life in the new system, did you give it much thought?
sure, we would be brought to perfection, and there would be a resurrection, but how about other things?.
in my years growing up and living as a jw, i never really thought about it that much.
I don't think I ever thought of what I would do. For the most part perhaps not working as hard as I do.
h4o
do you have someone that dislikes you?
if you would like to share your story, i would like to see it.
thanks!
I have no idea, I imagine there are a few. But I don't worry about things like that, for the most part I
get along well with most people.
h4o
first off i'd like to say hello to everyone on this forum, especially those who clicked on my topic.. i was baptized on sept 9, 2000 when i was 15. looking back i only did it because i had been studying with the same brother for 2 years and it seemed like the next logical step.i have 3 half siblings who at one point were all going to the meetings but were never baptized.
none are in any way affiliated with any congregation at all and live a long way from myself and my mom.. my mother and i are the only ones in my family who have been baptized and as of dec. 2008 i moved into my own place because things were just too tense between us.
i figured it would be beneficial for our stress levels if i moved out.. when i became inactive my mom kept asking why.
Well I can't blame you for trying to spare your mom. I feel the same about my mom she is older in age and that is all she has. To rip it all
away from her would be wrong for me. Unless I could be there 24/7 and I can't, so I see no point.
It will be hard to tell her you've joined the military I'm sure, I wish you the best. But you need not go into why you no longer
believe if that is how you feel. Just take your time thinking about what you will say to your now circumstances.
h4o
Welcome to the forum....
i had an hour to kill before picking julian up at a birthday party, last friday.
so, i decided to go relax at the library.
"when i was a child, we gave up our chairs for adults.
Well I can't see she owns the area, her kids were not all there at one time. They were busy looking at books. Besides she could have dragged some chairs in from the kiddy area....so making lots of chairs. Kids do not sit still they wander around looking most of the time.
I imagine all you needed was one bloody chair in the first place you were not asking for all of them...
h4o
