Posts by RFlores

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My life growing up as a witness...

by RFlores in

i have just spent the last 4 hours reading many various posts and finally built up the courage to register and share my experiences.

i am only 20 years old, but my young age should not overlook my intelligence as an observing individual.

i was born into the religion of the jehova's witnesses.

RFlores

Hey DJK thank you for the bio. Alot of what you said is what I wantd to articulate, but it gets a bit hard to keep track of the truly important topics when it all just comes flooding in you know. I will never forget the day when I lost my virginity. I was 14 years old with the most beautiful 19 year old puerto rican goddess I laid my young eyes on on top of me asking me if she can take my virginity and I see my father in my mind telling me about how I MUST wait til I am married or the lake of fire awaits. Well if the lake of fire is where I will reside then, I must say it was damn worth it. LOL

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My life growing up as a witness...

by RFlores in

i have just spent the last 4 hours reading many various posts and finally built up the courage to register and share my experiences.

i am only 20 years old, but my young age should not overlook my intelligence as an observing individual.

i was born into the religion of the jehova's witnesses.

RFlores

Thank you guys for the welcome. As for looking at religion at a critical viewpoint, I think it is safe to say I am happy where I am. I just plan to live my life to the fullest, and continue to be a good soul. And when my number is up, what can I do but accept the verdict.

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My life growing up as a witness...

by RFlores in

i have just spent the last 4 hours reading many various posts and finally built up the courage to register and share my experiences.

i am only 20 years old, but my young age should not overlook my intelligence as an observing individual.

i was born into the religion of the jehova's witnesses.

RFlores

I have just spent the last 4 hours reading many various posts and finally built up the courage to register and share my experiences. I am only 20 years old, but my young age should not overlook my intelligence as an observing individual. I was born into the religion of The Jehova's Witnesses. I always found it wierd how after all of the positive resanance and uplifting someone should get for attending the church in the god in which they believe in so devoutly, that they can just transform into the most awful excuse for a human being. With this, I mean my father. I must admit, him and my mother had a ton of problems, I still recall elders coming to my house, the constant tension I felt, not knowing why I felt it, but only because I was a pawn. My grandfather who is a disgusting dirtbag who can rot in hell was also such a supposed devout member. But yet he beat his children and his wife just as my father did to me and my family. I am the only boy in a family of 3. Being the middle child as well doesn't help. As a child life was all about adapting. And when I mean adapting, I mean having to mentally anchor the name of the man my mom is cheating on with my father so I dont make the mistake and call him the wrong name. And after editing my words for an entire day, just before he was dropping me and my sisters off, my younger sister just so happened to call him the wrong name. I got whipped with a telephone wire and a tree branch. When I used to go to the kingdom hall me and my two sisters would fall asleep. What the hell would some 7 year old boy know about heaven or hell? And I used to get hit in the bathroom of the kingdom hall, and I can recall a few times coming out with my father, not being able to absorb the pain and everyone being able to see it in my face. I think to myself at times, why would Jehova God the creator of all life, the master of the universe, the entity who is said to be able to peer into all our souls, why would he treat me as a "exile" if I have him in my heart, and it effects how I live my life? I am not trying to write a story here, I just have many questions I wanted to get off my chest, and I am sure there are many others who have felt the same way. I live in New york city, yes i dress like a hoodlum with baggy jeans and yankee hats. And when I see young preachers in their uniform black pants and white shirt I just want to go up to them and tell them that even though I have not been to church in so long, Jehova is in my heart and will always be. I think religion is a very big problem with this world, because instead of people living together as humans, we are killing each other because we have a different interperatation of what lies beyond the darkness of space. Is it heaven is it hell??? Or can you just shut up live your life and die and return to the Earth you once came from. I feel like I got a TON off of my chest. Thank you.