msil
Your experience brings back hars memories. One major difference is that we never experienced physical violence. Just loss of personal freedom is hard enough but especially the "softening" solitary confinement periods required determination. I remember when released (1968) just walking first steps on an asphalt felt strange because for more than two years I had been walking on a soft soil for an hour daily. That included emptying out a plastic bucket that was used as a toilet. No radio allowed, outgoing mail was restricted to four letters a month, one visitor per month etc.
I felt proud and that was a fight for my faith in Jehovah. My disfellowshipping 30 years ago did not change my attitude for the time served. I felt that I had accomplished something for future generation. And after few years JW's were exempted.
Recent events did hit me hard, I felt betrayed and all sort of feelings. I wrote to this forum and as mother and sister are still JW and i had to write a letter about my feelings. To get by easy I addressed the only letter to my sister - addressing it to my mother would have probably cut short the information chain.
Msil - we both know that these impossible to forget. Because of my age (55) it is unlike to face the same again. Yet I am prepared to do something I feel is right but possible second round is my private fight and unlikely along with Jehovah Witnesses.