Posts by IcingHeart

I sent a rather long email to a friend of mine, and I kinda feel like posting it here for some reason.

This is a bit more information about myself. It's edited some, but most of it is intact...

As I said, I was born and raised a Jehovah Witness. I began to notice around the time I was in middle school that I didn't/don't have much of a social life within the organization, even though we're supposed to be all about "brotherly love" and whatnot. Basically, I was/am an outcast because I like stuff people my age in this religion consider weird, like anime, video games, cartoons, role playing, ethnic stuff, eclectic fashion, obscure music, and more. It also didn't help that I used to be overweight (that problem's been solved, but you can add my strange diet to my list of growing oddities). Witnesses are just as two-faced and clique-ish as people in any other religious denomination. So while at kingdom hall, people would/will talk to me and be all fakey nice, but they would almost never go out of their way for me, call me, or invite me to go anywhere. When I was younger, some of the nice parents would invite me if they had arranged some kind of get-together, but their kids could care less about me. Though there were a few kids that actually liked me and didn't mind hanging out with me, but they were few and far between.

Despite this, I still believed in the Witness teachings, and thought everything would be sorted out by God in the end. I whole-heartedly believed that this was the "truth" and spent my time going to meetings, going preaching, studying their publications with the Bible, and making sure I avoided things considered bad like R-rated movies and cursing. I always used to feel guilty after saying a swear word...

Anyway, about eight years ago, I met my now best friend. He's the only person who's always been there for me no matter what (outside of family). He's always been honest with me, and tells me things that at first I don't like to hear, but I know that he says it because he cares. He's always been right about everything, and he's one of the smartest, level-headed guys I know. I've always gone to him for advice, and I usually do what he suggests. I tend to be wrong when I don't listen to him. About a year ago, he began speaking to me about how our religion is wrong, pointing out hypocritical doctrines, like the blood doctrine. He would ask, "Why is such an importance placed on the symbol of life (blood) but not life itself?" There were a lot of other things, and if you want, check out JWFacts.com and jehovahs-witness.com whenever you get the chance. They reveal more history about the Watchtower society that the average Witness has no idea about.

For awhile, I dismissed anything he had to say that was negative concerning the Witnesses to be wrong. Cognitive dissonance did not allow me to consider that what I believed for the last 21 years was total bullshit. Last year, I had a seed of doubt growing in the back of my mind that I heavily tried to ignore, and hoped that it would just go away. It wasn't until four months ago that I finally had an epiphany over my belief system. I did a ton of research, and everything I discovered about the witnesses, the real "truth," was amazing, and shocking. My best friend was right, and I should have been listening to him from the start. (Yay karvel!)

Unfortunately, I'm still living with my parents, currently job hunting, with no car. I'm attending college, though off for the summer in hopes that I can work full-time. I haven't worked for a while because I was busy with school, and am currently looking for a job.

Sorry for the long-winded email...

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IF gas prices go to $10, and these major disasters continue......

by AK - Jeff in

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friends

....like the one in myanmar now, will we not see the apocalyptic religions just explode in growth, including jw's?

even during relatively calm times, these groups can stir the 'sheep' to believe that the tribulation is just around the corner.

if we continue to see major disasters, what effect do you see in these groups?.

IcingHeart

journey-on
Over so many years of this kind of religious abuse, you are bound to encounter psychological problems.

willyloman
Very profound. We've all been abused and we are psychologically impaired to some extent. Some will deny it, but only because they are less bruised than others.

I completely agree

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How did you find JWD?

by sweet pea in

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friends

prompted by the thread about jwd v wts i wondered how many of you found jwd via the internet or friends/partners?

what were your first impressions?

i found this site through besty (husband) once my faith had crumbled after reading www.jwfacts.com.

IcingHeart

The candy told me. Lols.

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Today is my Husband's Birthday

by mrsjones5 in

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friends

he's in bed right now, in pain because he sat all day at his computer trying to pull together a business deal.

couldn't get any sleep last night because of the pain.

when i woke up this morning to get the kids off to school my hubby was in bed wimpering because of the pain.. my daughter made a card for her father, coming from my daughter means so much to my hubby cuz it's from his only girl who's finally treating him like a daddy (she's pushed him away since she was a baby and with hubby's sickness they've been spending more time together).

IcingHeart

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I dont know what to do

by Ex-smoker in

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ok so i was raised in the truth and a lot of jw belifes are indoctrinated in me(big suprize) the main ones being that the dead are conscies of nothing and that jesus is gods son and not god.

i never got baptized and at 17 i started to doubt all orginized religion but in the back of my mind saying that if theres no hell why serve god.

at 21 my life was a mess i was addicted to drugs and thought that it was satans system that was doing this to me and i should give the truth a chance again so i moved back home.