saintsatan
yes i can relate to what your saying.i hate most filling in the report listing what witnessing i have done how many magazines i have handed out and it never feels enough as the phobia limits me a great deal.I did feel presurred into telephone witnessing and writing letters to people and guilty at the same time as i would not want churches telephoning me. think i have known all along what i want to do and feel a little silly posting , maybe choice isn't so complicated as it seems , today is a sane day ;) thanks for all your thoughts.
gilwarrior
i hate to walk down the street , i know people must be thinking yuck!
so I know how you feel gilwarrior ,at least i think i do .The sane part of me knows that they don't even notice me or if they do i'm just another person in the street but it is hard and at times impossible to hold on to that reality. Eating out with other people is a nightmare mostly i don't eat out to avoid the embaressment of throwing up.Im sure its all about lack of confidence and self esteem
I use glimpsing which is recognising reality of the situation at least once, then let it go then keep doing it that has really heped me not to wash my hands so much(differant problem but also the same problem if you know what i mean).some people would say it's a bad habbit glimpsing what a nice person you are,of course i've added on a few bits for continuity ie: what great hair and what great knees ;)