Welcome to the forum Anon
Your story is not unusual with people /children brought up in this particular religious cult.
Child abuse came in many different forms not just physical abuse and as its now known sexaul abuse too.
Sorry to hear about your personal dilemma, many such as myself who were brought up in the JWS cult can sympathize with what your going through.
So coming here and telling your story will help you progress to eventually live a happy wholesome and enjoyable life.
My advise is just do what your doing and when you are prepared to leave you will be on solid foundational footing.
Leaving quietly away from your still in family is the best route to take.
I left saying nothing apposing to the faith to my still active family and it pretty much has worked out well, not the most close engaging relationship to be sure but better than nothing.