Posts by 060702015

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Does the name Jehovah actually exist in the original Hebrew language?

by Yizuman in

source: http://www.familybible.org/articles/messianic/jehovah.htm.

well, then, where did the word jehovah come from?.

thus the artificial name jehovah came into being.. (yahweh, the new encyclopedia britannica, vol.

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I don't know what to believe. What is GOD's name?

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VIEWS ON RACE (My own)

by TerryWalstrom in

my views on race.

my grandmother and mother came from new orleans without any perceivable sense of superiority toward people of color.

the infamous n-word was never uttered in my household.

The congregation I went to for most of my life was RACIST. No I'm not pulling the race card. An overseerer addressed the manner in a public Sunday talk. I always thought it was my fault why the people there were nasty and cold toward me. Even after that day, I still thought I was the problem. I'm in Michigan.

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What was your eye opening moment?

by WasOnceBlind in

if you had to pinpoint the time or experience that finally made you open your eyes, what would it be?.

i think for me it was the time i saw my dad shun his brother who he had not seen in decades just because he was a da'ed jw.

i thought to my self "no way jesus would do that.

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how nasty JWs were to me is when I begin questioning the religion and Jehovah God. That was a stupid a reason tho. I begin looking at youtubes recently about the religion that made question the actual doctrines. However, I remember back in high school, years ago, I a came across a website that described the Jehovah Witnesses as a CULT. I tried to block that information out of my mind.

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i committed the unforgiveable sin

by 060702015 in

everyday i wake up with knots in my stomach and trouble breathing.

my life continues to go into a downward spiral.

in the past, i had my dependence on god.

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i have so many communication problems due to being isolated all my life. im very socially awkward and not articulate. starting last year, ive had a phobia of driving on the freeway. i get very faint and nervous . my driving problem has limited me. its just one problem after another for me.

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i committed the unforgiveable sin

by 060702015 in

everyday i wake up with knots in my stomach and trouble breathing.

my life continues to go into a downward spiral.

in the past, i had my dependence on god.

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I am a 30 female still living at home with my parents. ive gone to undergrad and graduated. i cant seem to gain stable employment to move out on my own. i feel so trapped

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i committed the unforgiveable sin

by 060702015 in

everyday i wake up with knots in my stomach and trouble breathing.

my life continues to go into a downward spiral.

in the past, i had my dependence on god.

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Well thanks I'm really going through a lot. My life has been depressing and constantly in a rut. I've tried to help myself but its like a fighting against the wind. Logically I need to leave the "TRUTH" alone but there is another part of me that wont let go. I envy those who grew up as JWs who love Jehovah God that have happy normal lives and minds.

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i committed the unforgiveable sin

by 060702015 in

everyday i wake up with knots in my stomach and trouble breathing.

my life continues to go into a downward spiral.

in the past, i had my dependence on god.

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thank you everyone for your support and taking the time to post.

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i committed the unforgiveable sin

by 060702015 in

everyday i wake up with knots in my stomach and trouble breathing.

my life continues to go into a downward spiral.

in the past, i had my dependence on god.

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Even if the JW religion is not right, Jehovah God still exists. And I have committed the unforgivable sin by thinking he was his enemy not the true GOD in heaven. I don't want to say it outright who I thought Jehovah God was...

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i committed the unforgiveable sin

by 060702015 in

everyday i wake up with knots in my stomach and trouble breathing.

my life continues to go into a downward spiral.

in the past, i had my dependence on god.

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I don't think counseling will fix a spiritual matter. Thank you for reading my experience. Everyday is hard on me it makes me sick to my stomach. Sleep is the only time I find relief. Enjoy your sunday.

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i committed the unforgiveable sin

by 060702015 in

everyday i wake up with knots in my stomach and trouble breathing.

my life continues to go into a downward spiral.

in the past, i had my dependence on god.

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everyday i wake up with knots in my stomach and trouble breathing. my life continues to go into a downward spiral. in the past, i had my dependence on God. my family life has been dysfunctional then my social life became sordid since high school. my issue is this, my mother and one of my older half-sister that i grew up with were religious. however they were abusive to me (not only to me tho but anyway). i couldnt find solace in our place of worship either.

the people of this religious congregation that we switch to when i was in middle school were cold and nasty to me. it was a new congregation but the same religion i grew up with. i began saying to myself well Jehovah God obviously doesnt want me apart of his organization. their religion is under the umbrella of Christianity but it is an organization that is slightly different from main stream Christianity.

eventually my flawed logic and feelings began to go into dark places. i started to think things about Jehovah God that were not true. i started to think maybe im worshiping the wrong God and "someone bad" else instead, and other awful things. things that led me to commit the unforgivable sin. the unforgivable sin is blasphemy against the Holy Spirit” in Matthew 12:31-32

i approached my mother with my concerns. she just replied oh well even the sun shines on sinners. ive had a stressful life that seems to get only worse no matter how i try to make improvements. its make me angry and depressed how my life has been so unpleasant and how i will only go on to suffer even more after i die. no matter how hard i try to live my life according to God he will never forgive me and i suffer the consequences by being destroyed or eternal hell fire.

i remember my mother cursing me out because i wasnt addressing her to hello after i came home from school i just go to my room. after cursing me out. i began to laugh out of nervousness and she told me that she wouldnt care if i burned in hell. even tho her religion doesnt subscribe to the traditional view of people burning in hell, i felt like she had evil intentions for me beyond this life at that moment which eventually has come to be true i will suffer after this life.

i remember my mother saying since she is a baptized Jehovah Witness she has complete reign over everyone in the house. i thought immediately i cant be a JW and live here too. But I shouldnt have thought that. I've always been a weak person running away from pain

my dad said he wasnt stupid enough to believe all people of my mothers religion or God was bad due his few experiences with the organization. he is not apart of my mother religion even tho they are married. i wasnt smart or spiritual strong to withstand what i was going through. i still live at home, ive had trouble gaining stable employment even after obtaining a decent degree. i carry huge resentment toward my mom and sister for my unforgivable sin ive made even tho it is my fault . my dad said he hope i get a decent job soon so i can move out, distant myself away from them and the other family chaos then he might be leaving too.

i cant get out of this circle of mess ive created. atleast when ppl committed to suicide or die natually they have hope of finding peace. but after i died im going to suffer more and more than ive had on earth