Being "at the top" is not a big deal to these folks. If you'll recall, Ray told us that they view the "Organization" as an entity, separate from them. While they run it, they individually view themselves as a small piece of the "arrangement".
Confronted with a life or death blood issue, a JW may choose death, and yet this doesn't open their eyes, or open the eyes of their loved ones, in many cases. A GB member casting a single vote in a weekly meeting is not necessarily going to awaken him. He sits down at that table, not even comprehending (as Ray says) that he IS the organization. He just sits down and fulfills a role that dozens of others before him did, with no problem.
Ray couldn't believe his eyes. He felt the full weight of it. He did snap. However, from his perspective, it was no big deal for most -- if not all -- of the others at that time.