"she just came home from meeting and said i should da myself so she can just worry about her and my son"
This is a very normal reaction. The active JWs want you to think that there is some urgency in the matter. They want to know exactly what your status is.
However, you have the power and control -- so long as you stop talking about "apostate" things and voicing *any* ideas that are contrary to official WT doctrine. Keep your research and your thoughts to yourself, for now. You need to learn more about what your involved in, and you need to read the stories about how to be successful in helping yourself and others.
Most people do not deserve to know what's in your heart. JWs are not capable of simply non-emotinally discussing facts. If you have an opportunity to read Hassan's first book, 'Combatting Cult Mind Control', you'll get some insight into how your JW loved ones think.
Remember, the JW religion is not a pair of glasses that they put on each day. The religion is their entire worldview, their very eyes! Your challenge is not to remove their glasses, but to reshape how they see the world.