Thank you everyone.
@Quandry-I am still able to associate with my family that are 'in'. My mom has become an uber JW but doesn't get preachy with me. She knows that I am not returning-not from me but from my cousin who told her-and she doesn't bring it up to me. We get along quite well.
I really want to tell her the whole truth about the JW's and why I won't return but don't want her to have to choose between me and them. I hate that she is so zealous about the WTBS.