Ok, so I have been thinking about my time as a JW (I'm fading out - read my other posts for background info). You know how you always hear how the ministry will bring so much joy and contentment, yadda yadda yadda? I ALWAYS hated service...ALWAYS!! I even thought that the reason I hated it so much was because I had a bad attitude. I would pray and pray and pray that I could have a better attitude. Don't get me wrong, I have always had a desire to help people, but I felt deep down in my gut an absolute loathing for service. I hate talking to people who obviously knew more about the Bible then I did, only to try to convince them that they were wrong and I was right. I hated being in the damn heat (I live in South Mississippi) and being with a group of hard-core older sisters who don't believe in taking breaks. I hated making return visits on people who didn't give a crap about the magazines, they were just trying to get me off their backs. Now I know why I hated it so much...it was all completely bogus. JWs don't have the truth, and trying to convince people that you do is nothing but torture. People don't want you talking crap to them, and it most of the time it gets ugly....anyway, enough ranting. :) Feel free to drop me a line!!