SAG,
your post was deep. When it was good it was good, but when it was bad, it was really bad. I have a lot of mixed feelings about my time with the JW's.
I loved the camaraderie, and feeling of belonging. But then I hated the favoritism, and not belonging (DA'd, and such). Some of my best times growing up were with the Org, but then a lot of my confusion later in life, (sexuality, and trying to adjust to life after the Org) really made for some bad decisions, and feelings.
So I guess you could say I am probably neutral on whether or not I was glad I was a J Dub.
DJ_Q