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  3 REASONS TO BE A JW

  by thebigdebate in

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  i have a theory on why people become jw's.

  there are 3 different reasons:.

  1: you were born into a family of jw's.

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  amama2six

  Sounds right to me, too.
  
  Me-Parents joined when I was four.
  Dad-Life crisis
  Stepmom-Nuts
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  Is this normal???

  by amama2six in

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  i joined a few days ago thinking "hey, maybe i will find people that i have something in common with!

  " i did not come here expecting what has happened to me.

  i am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused.

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  amama2six

  Thank you so much, everyone! I'm feeling better today, though something tells me it's going to be a roller coaster ride for a little while. It's good to know I have somewhere to rant when I need to, as well as to keep gaining information on the "real truth".
  
  Something I thought of today...another reason after being DFed that I did not seek out any information or others like me for so long is because in the back of my mind I was still afraid of being an actual "apostate". For some reason I thought...if I don't read apostate information, talk to apostates who openly attack the religion, or openly attack the religion myself then I am not an apostate. I'm just someone who sinned and left. I was STILL afraid in the back of my mind and figured if I was wrong to leave I didn't want to go "completely" bad and sin against the holy spirit.
  
  Instead all I did was keep myself in the dark and prevent the opportunity to begin healing from the whole experience. Now, I feel stupid. :(
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  DRAMA SUMMARY: 2005 District Convention - Pursue Goals That Honor God

  by ithinkisee in

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  i forgot how ridiculously fictional and manipulative this drama was until i just typed up these notes:.

  scene:.

  jonathan enters, and everything is better.

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  amama2six

  My father was "Lot" in the drama "Jehovah's judgements against a law defying people" (Noah / Lot : from "Divine Justice" District Convention, 1988) held at the New Haven Coliseum in Connecticut. I remember thinking it was so exciting and cool (was just shy of 10 years old)...it was one of the few "good" experiences I had growing up. Reading what these dramas actually SAY, though, certainly puts things into perspective!
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  Is this normal???

  by amama2six in

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  i joined a few days ago thinking "hey, maybe i will find people that i have something in common with!

  " i did not come here expecting what has happened to me.

  i am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused.

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  amama2six

  Twelve years of denial...awesome. LOL
  
  I think I'm already between anger and bargaining...wanting to unleash my fury on some unsuspecting Elders while at the same time wanting to "bargain" an apology for the way things were handled in my situation. Wishing they could at least admit what happened wasn't right, even if they can't fully admit their beliefs are effed up. Of course I know this won't happen.
  
  I've definitely suppressed/buried a LOT. I knew that I had because when I try to think back on my childhood I remember very little...just major good things and major bad things. The rest is a blur at best, but usually non-existent. Coming on here I am being flooded with things I had long ago "forgotten". Watching YouTube videos about JWs or ex-JWs has sparked a lot, too. Even something as simple as video of JWs singing kingdom melodies...12 years later and guess what? I still know almost all the songs word-for-word! Terms has been a rough one, too, I read the thread about JW terms and immediately felt anger. Just the terms...not any particular memories associated with them...invoked anger. What's up with that?
  
  Argh...I have lived in denial too long, I suppose. I'm glad I can start moving on with people who understand what I'm going through, though. :)
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  Is this normal???

  by amama2six in

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  i joined a few days ago thinking "hey, maybe i will find people that i have something in common with!

  " i did not come here expecting what has happened to me.

  i am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused.

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  Thank you! I thought I was going crazy. :embarrassed: A few minutes ago I was envisioning myself going to the KH down the road from me (literally a minute from my house) and giving some Elders a piece of my mind. I won't, of course, because I know it would get me nowhere. It was a fun thought, though. :P
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  Is this normal???

  by amama2six in

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  i joined a few days ago thinking "hey, maybe i will find people that i have something in common with!

  " i did not come here expecting what has happened to me.

  i am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused.

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  amama2six

  I joined a few days ago thinking "Hey, maybe I will find people that I have something in common with!" I did not come here expecting what has HAPPENED to me. I am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused. Things I didn't even realize still affected me are coming to the forefront...memories I had long ago buried are surfacing and I am entirely unprepared. I honestly thought after all these years I had finally moved on and now I am being slapped in the face with how much I have NOT moved on. Please tell me this gets better!
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  I'm in love!!

  by Newborn in

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  dear friends,.

  maybe you're not that interested but i'm so in love, after many years of unhappy marriage.

  i'm in love with a forbidden "worldly" man but still he's the best guy and most kind and genuin person i've ever known and he likes me back.

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  I went crazy when I first left...lol.
  
  Congrats to you on your newfound freedom! Just be careful not to get too "wild", it's so easy to do when you've been held down for a long time. I did a lot of things I now wish I hadn't but it was all part of the long process of breaking away...one that I can honestly say I don't think I'm done with even 12 years later!
  
  *Hugs* ~April
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  Best JW tall story/variations of it?

  by KW13 in

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  dont just list one, list them all so we can laugh because in all honesty i can't believe we believed some of them.

  for example, i was told annie lennox stopped a concert to ask if there was any jw's in the audience, and if there was could they leave as they were stopping the demons getting through...is this even remotely true?

  did annie lennox ask the jw's in the audience to move because they were stopping the snack lady getting through...and it got twisted through chinese whispers.... the other day (i felt sick) one witness was banging on about how amazing it was that the watchtower society's building was the only one standing still...wtf...my stepdad responded with a 'wow thats amazing' and the first brother was like 'yeah i know'...grrrrrrrrr aaaaaaaah screaaaaaaaaam .

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  amama2six

  Well, true or not I never kicked any little dogs while out in the field, especially after hearing that...hehehe.
  
  I wish I could remember more stories...there were so many! A lot of the ones already mentioned here I've heard before, it's crazy how far information travels in the organization. :D
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  New here

  by Dubslayer in

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  just want to say "hello".

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  amama2six

  Welcome to the forums! I just joined a few days ago and already feel I am in the presence of family. :D ~April
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  What's the most ridiculous thing that was ever said to you personally?

  by iamthewolf5562 in

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  were you told that you werent "spiritually mature"?

  you were "acting worldly"?

  you need to "rethink your association"?.

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  amama2six

  Here's an email response I received to some of my comments on the ex-JW YouTube videos about families shunning their DFed members (myself included):
  
  
  
  
  
  maybe its somethin' wrong with your family because you can't completely disown a family members when they don't follow the teachings we're given. I know because my brother is disfellowshipped and i was sad because i thought i wasn't going to be able to talk to him again. However, an elder came to our house and told our family that we could still talk to him because we can't not talk to him. The only thing that we have to do is limit the time we spend with him.
  
  
  
  
  
  It's not just my family. Every DFed JW I know has had the same shunning experience. I'm glad this was not your personal experience, however! Not to say I don't talk to my family at ALL but it's VERY general "Hi, how are ya...love you...yeah love you too" and that's about it...and they don't even attend the meetings anymore themselves! My DFed best friend's mother (we grew up together from the age of about six), who is still a devout Jehovah's Witness, refused to attend her wedding, refused to be there for her when she got cervical cancer-radiation treatments-endometriosis-total hysterectomy, and only calls her when someone in the family is dying/dead.
  
  I could understand if I was throwing apostate information at them or was leading a wholly immoral life, but I am not. I have a husband and six children that cry for the grandparents that will not get close enough to have a real relationship with them. I can count on one hand the number of times they have ever been in the same room with us over the past 12 years. It is the same for my friend with her mother and many more like us. The heartbreak each of us face is unimaginable and we have been told it is supposed to be out of "love" in hopes that we will come back to "the truth".
  
  Again, I am glad that in your personal experience this has not been the case. I wish more would take that approach on the issue...as having everything and everyone you know and love taken away from you in an instant simply for a choice you made is not what I would consider "loving" or "Godly"...it is cruel and heartless.
  
  Regardless...blessings to you and your family, I wholly respect your belief choices and hope you do not view my message as an attack on your faith. It certainly is not meant to be so! Aside from the heartache involved I am fully willing to admit that I have gleaned many positive attributes from my years as a Jehovah's Witness, and for that I am thankful. *Hugs* ~April