EntirelyPossible that was heartbreaking to read. My first thought when I finished reading your letter was "I wish there was someway this letter could be published so that people can see just how insidiously evil this JW cult is". Then as I read the replies I notice that Designs obviously was thinking along the same lines when he sugguest getting it published in the Brooklyn newspaper.
My heart goes out to you EP as I know all too well the feelings of remorse and shame and guilt that I have from dragging my son along to the KH for all his childhood years and the way we filled him with fear and guilt for what was just normal little boys behaviour. My only consolation is that my husband and I left the cult when my son was 15 and he has a great life now.
Wishing you all the best as you deal with this incredibly difficult and heart wrenching situation.
Hopscotch