Welcome Confuzzled. I am very sorry for your situation.
Being a born-in and having family still in the Cult, I understand. I just spoke with my Mom this morning and yesterday and I had to lay down yesterday and take a nap and just zone out. I wanted to bang my head on the wall after talking with her. Most of our conversation was JW related and why I won't go back and my fighting with her on why I won't. ERRRR, ARRRRGGGHHH.
I sent her the Crisis of Conscience book and she read it and declared it Apostate and evil. (sigh). Trying to get those tentacles out of their heads is, as you are finding, almost impossible.
Please keep reading here. Do not get involved with those mind bending Cultists. It seems easy to say "I won't get sucked in", yet, look at Katie Holmes and others who become Stepford Wives for their husbands, all in the name of *love*.