Bobsgirl,
I never thought I would agree with skally but she is right. You need not beat yourself up over this. You need to be ready for it emotionally and maybe your not and thats understandable.
We are all just grateful that someone has taken it up for those that have been silenced. So, you are not alone.
When someone has suffered from abuse of any kind trust is a major issue. It is understandable so please don't continue to feel negitive about yourself. You are right on time with your healing process.
imbue
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"The only good elite are dead elite!!"-Naeblis
(Ok! He borrowed it)