Hi Jason, welcome to the board.
Children can smell BS a mile off. They haven't been co-erced yet by the authorities. Logic, reason, and reality don't match religious fantasies/scriptural interpretation being passed off as truth.
I was 10 when I started questioning the overall claim that God is loving but does nothing to help people in need (aka Theodicy). The Ethiopian famine of the 1970s was raging, killing 100s of thousands of people. The reason my Mom gave me when I questioned her about why God did not intervene was that Jehovah had turned his back on mankind because we could not stop sinning. I didn't say anything to her but it was then that I deduced God was a douchebag and it didn't really matter whether he actually existed or not. I was going to live my life without this prick.
I look forward to more of your story. And keep on with the critical thinking. It will save you from a lot of charlatons.