Like others have said, I just can't be a hypocrite. Would my life be easier if I went back? Sometimes I say yes, only because I've been going through some tough situations where I could have used some support from people I had spent 20 years of my life building relationships with.
Then, I bop myself on the head and remember why we left in the first place!! Lack of love and support from our lovely JW family after our child was abused by one of " them." The mind control runs deep in us and even after being removed from it for 5 years When something bad happened I still go temporarily insane ( I call it my JW mind ) Like I've told my husband I could never be part of any religion that harms their followers. Disfellowshipping, 2 witness rule, blood issue and all the lies that keep changing....harm people. I cringe to think I signed the no blood form twice while being prepped for surgery, all while not really wanting to but feeling I had to. It's insanity!! Yet, it was our life.