Excellent work dubstepped.
I think he is on the way out - eventually. He wants to be his own man but he's trapped and loves his mummy who was there for him when his father walked out and he doesn't want her to be hurt. He can't (yet) cope with losing his family.
He's a canny one and I think he will eventually fade. It might take years but here is my prediction.
Now. Carry on trying to be a good kind elder, circumnavigating/dodging organisational crap.
Soon. Feel so embarrassed/wretched/shit about himself as he is trapped between promoting Tight Pants Rants, Overcrapping Generalisations, crazy cart work and his authentic beliefs.
Later. Step aside from being an elder.
Later again. Fade.