STOP worrying about the more distant future and any relationship.
Just resolve to be firm and get away from this relationship. Change your phone number and change congregations too if it is at all possible.
Ignore all jw contact that makes your stomach churn (stomachs are good at telling you what feels right!) - especially nosey or well meaning elders!
You can then go home close your door, lie on the sofa, switch on the fire, look after and love your kids, help your 12 year old through puberty, switch on the TV, decide if and when you want to go to a meeting or not, come on here, check jw.facts.
Rebuild contact with your non-jw family. Realise that if there is a God that his existence and plans do not depend upon jw's. If there isn't then enjoy the life you have. Be happy not knowing ...
Hugs to you.