As I sit here today wondering where my life shall end up, I'm letting some of my transgressions be made known. I never been the most outspoken person, more often than not I have been timid and shy. I have always felt uncomfortable when in large settings of people, especially large congregation gatherings and conventions. It always felt as if I was nobody with nothing really to offer but another body that supported this religion. I have never been confident in my abilities and apperance, though at times my confidence would be high, more often than not it would be down. I never been a strong believer in the so called "Truth", just something about it's legitamacy was always in the back of my mind. I always tried to maintain fine conduct as a Jehovah's Witness, always trying to avoid so called "bad association" and loose conduct. But for the latter as a imperfect person, I have fallen short in this regard unfortunately. On a couple of incidents, one of which that involved the opposite sex. This sister in my congregation at the time was 17 and I had just moved into the congregation. I don't know when she started to like me but after some friends from the congo and me went out for bowling, she was playing around with my cell phone which I left on the table near her. She got my number off of it and started to call me frequently there after. I was a naive 20yr old at the time and never really had gotten this much attention from girls, well maybe from this wierd goth girl in my last year of high school. Well anyways to make a long story short, this sister who's family took a liking to me, started to invite me over their house and to dinner a few times. All the while this young sister constantly called me and told me explicit details of a sexual nature regarding her past before she was baptised. This was shocking to me at the time and I openly confidided this and other talk with these two brothers that I was working for. After telling thim about some sexual and suggestive talk made to me from the sister, one of the brothers threatened to tell the elders and the sister's brother who was a M.S in my hall. I was scared silly and promised that I would stop talking to the girl, but this girl would not leave me alone. Well anyway after being invited over her house to watch movies with one of her brothers. I got caught up and felt on her legs and butt, after leaving that night I felt so bad that I called her the next day and apologized fervently for my actions. She wasn't worried about it and had never objected to my actions. I shortly there after stopped talking with her by being so guilty of this incident. I never told anyone of this, especially the brothers for fear of reparcussions. I was so pathetic and stupid and didn't know how the JW judicial system worked. I used to think that if a person confessed of a serious sin, they were immediately disfellowshipped. I never really paid attention to this since hey as long as I never did anything wrong, I would not need to meet with the elders. Well the situation with the sister has been almost six years ago, I still talk to her every once in awhile but really not that much at all since I moved away. Well now that I am living with my mom and sister who are Jdubbs and now that I have become part of the "conscious class", I don't care that much if I fall into loose conduct. In regards to the opposite sex, I am still scared and really don't know how to react to attention from them. Everytime I really like someone, I never have the guts to show that I'm interested in them. Not to say that I never had success in talking to girls but unfortunately, there was always the "worldly" girl aspect that stop me short, being the fact I'm more attracted to them instead of the ordinary looking women of the Organization. Anyways, Well my second big act of loose conduct happened this past Super Bowl sunday at my new friend and co-worker's house where I got drunk and wasted. Since I no longer consider myself a witness but am still in, I didn't care about this and planned with him weeks in advance on gettin drunk of shots of liquor. He introduced me to his girlfriend's sister and we had been talkin for a few weeks. She was at this party but nothing ever happen with us. Sorry WTS, but I did not fornicate or steal a cup of sugar from my neighbor after gettin drunk. Now that I'm on my way out of this cult, I am wishing to do immoral things but can't seem to get in the situation to do them. I'm constantly geeting harassed by my mom every day about not leaving the "truth" and to talk to the brothers, I have written a letter to disassociate myself but I'm hesistant to give it to the elders. Part of which I really don't feel like sitting in front of them to express my disbelief in the organization and some of it's doctrine. I want to get away from all of this so bad! I'm tired of being harrased and my sexuality, sanity, and emotions being questioned just because I don't believe this is the TRUTH! I'm still a Christian and am eager to learn and find my way. I just need some people to talk to. Next up my story, The Trials and Tribulations of Whathehadas( What I have is what you got and what I got is what I give to you)
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The Confession of Whathehadas
by whathehadas inas i sit here today wondering where my life shall end up, i'm letting some of my transgressions be made known.
i never been the most outspoken person, more often than not i have been timid and shy.
i have always felt uncomfortable when in large settings of people, especially large congregation gatherings and conventions.
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Tell me does this make Any sense?
by whathehadas inwhile satan and his demons fiddled around in heaven and earth.
jehovah and jesus waited for over 2,000 years before kickin them out.
while a jdubb who is declared a apostate by the governing body and elders is kicked out asap!
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So for a total of 6,940 years, Satan and inc. will have been left alone to fiddle around. While a Jdubb who is labeled and likened to Satan is kick out and destroyed ASAP.
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Tell me does this make Any sense?
by whathehadas inwhile satan and his demons fiddled around in heaven and earth.
jehovah and jesus waited for over 2,000 years before kickin them out.
while a jdubb who is declared a apostate by the governing body and elders is kicked out asap!
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While Satan and his Demons fiddled around in Heaven and earth. Jehovah and Jesus waited for over 2,000 years before kickin them out. While a Jdubb who is declared a Apostate by the Governing Body and Elders is kicked out ASAP!
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Jehovah's Witnesses: The Radio Shack of Religions
by whathehadas inif you ever been to radio shack, you would notice how relatively small the store is.
yet according to advertisements and sales associate suggestions, they have in the store everything that you will need which is electronic related.
they have all the answers for your technological wants simply put, or is this really the case.
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If you ever been to Radio shack, you would notice how relatively small the store is. Yet according to advertisements and sales associate suggestions, they have in the store everything that you will need which is electronic related. They have all the answers for your technological wants simply put, or is this really the case. You would only have to take a couple of steps in the door and realize that there is pressure on you to buy. You may have come in just to pick up batteries for your T.V remote, but end up being held up and interrogated on what cell phone provider you have. Being hit with all the questions and suggestions, you would tense up with frustration knowing that this is not what you came in there for. The pressure imposed through the environment may cave most people into getting into a contract or paying more money than what you intended to pay. The knowledgeable and crafty associates seemed to be helpful and have all the answers for your needs. This was the major factor in buying the crap thats being pushed in the store. As a former employee, I got a first hand glimpse into the Radio shack world. Pressure on the Sales Associate to sell to the customer was emphasized constantly, Granted all sales utilize this, Radio Shack's moto of "we have the answers" sticks out among its competitors. In comparison to Jehovah's Witnesses "we have all the answers, Why go anywhere else?" True there not as big as the others but...they know what you need. Bait and trap my brothers, Bait and trap.
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Why Me??
by whathehadas ini think of this as i reflect on my life.
why did i have to be born in this cult?
i'm not alone in this regard, but you can't help but wonder.
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I think of this as I reflect on my life. Why did I have to be born in this cult? I'm not alone in this regard, but you can't help but wonder. Why couldn't It have been Catholic, Protestant, Presbyterian, or any of the hundreths of other denominations? Oh what a frustrating and agonizing life!
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Dating in the Real World...
by darkl1ght3r in...or, love stinks.
i am so unprepared for this.
i feel like a kid just walking into willy wonka's chocolate factory.
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Man this is one of the areas where being a JW is a killer for me! I never really had a date as a JW. I wish I could go back in time and go after all the "wordly" girls that like me. Watchtower, I can't help myself if I like the tatoo, cursing, short dress wearing girls you so admantly talk against. OH what a lonely guy could do with a girl....not just sex but to CUDDLE.
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Most annoying and irritating comments by JWs
by whathehadas insince i'm still suffering in this crackerjacks organization, these are some of statements that just drive me nuts.
1. in service: "we are not here to convert you" funny how jws have the true religion but resort to deception and outright lies in order to get people to listen
2. to other jws: "we won't have to deal with this in the new system" 7 billion evil doers dead and gone, no longer create problems for us
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Some of the crazy statements out in Service: "Do you know the special song?" TO those who say they are going to heaven. Funny how they can ask someone that and not know it their self to verify. "Do you know what God's name is?" Funny how in the WT own literature and bible. They admit that Jehovah has been accepted as God's name just because it is well known. YHWH=Jehovah???? "Have you ever READ the Bible?" Funny how they ask that but Most Witnesses have never really READ the Bible. One of the most annoying questions of all time. "Would YOU like a free home BIBLE study?" Funny how they ask this, knowing that it IS NOT THE BIBLE THAT YOU WILL BE STUDYING FROM But some 223 Book that changes from time to time. WHAT A FALLACY!!
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Most annoying and irritating comments by JWs
by whathehadas insince i'm still suffering in this crackerjacks organization, these are some of statements that just drive me nuts.
1. in service: "we are not here to convert you" funny how jws have the true religion but resort to deception and outright lies in order to get people to listen
2. to other jws: "we won't have to deal with this in the new system" 7 billion evil doers dead and gone, no longer create problems for us
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That brings to mind one elder who use to always make statements like this when he counseled; For ex. "It's good that you enjoy socializing, Jehovah is a happy God and wants us to be happy too. We all want to enjoy company with friends that we love and cherish the association that we get from them. BUT do you THINK is WISEEEEEEEEEE.......to associate with those who are not Jehovah's people, Especially those who are pronounced as APOSTATES." Then he would say "Do you have your Bible handy." I used to HATE THIS!!!!!!
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Most annoying and irritating comments by JWs
by whathehadas insince i'm still suffering in this crackerjacks organization, these are some of statements that just drive me nuts.
1. in service: "we are not here to convert you" funny how jws have the true religion but resort to deception and outright lies in order to get people to listen
2. to other jws: "we won't have to deal with this in the new system" 7 billion evil doers dead and gone, no longer create problems for us
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"Brothers and Sisters, Welcome to the ____ District Convention!" "Friends have you enjoyed this Spiritual feast today!" "It's time for our study." "Did you turn in your time for this month?" "Give your undivided attention to our next discourse." BSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!
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Most annoying and irritating comments by JWs
by whathehadas insince i'm still suffering in this crackerjacks organization, these are some of statements that just drive me nuts.
1. in service: "we are not here to convert you" funny how jws have the true religion but resort to deception and outright lies in order to get people to listen
2. to other jws: "we won't have to deal with this in the new system" 7 billion evil doers dead and gone, no longer create problems for us
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Other ones that are quite alarming. "You can't leave, we love you!" "Jehovah loves those he disciplines." "Whatever happens, stay close to Jehovah's Organization!" "The World will eat you up and spit you out!" "Trust me, there is NOTHING out there." "The DEMONS are in this house!" "Get on your knees and PRAY, PRAY for your heart to change!"