Hello everyone, my wife and I are currently associated with JW's. My mom converted when I was 3 years old in 1975, my wife was born after her parents converted. About 4 years ago however, my wife and I have seen many things that have discouraged us enough to start doing some research into the validity of this religion. Much to our horror, we now understand why the organization fights so hard to keep its members away from the internet. Needless to say, my wife and I are both convinced that this is not the truth, in fact there are not many religious organizations out there that are further from it. At first, we decided for the sake of not getting disfellowshipped we would just go through the motions. I was an MS at the time and was very agressively being groomed to become an elder. I eventually resigned, because I found it more and more difficult to give talks on subjects I did not believe in, citing health problems as the reason. Even though we were frustrated we accepted this new lifestyle of living a lie for the sake of keeping the family together. (Although my parents are divorsed, primarily due to the WTBS)Everything was ok until my daughter started school. She got invitations to birthday parties, she was introduced to Christmas festivities among other holidays, and of course the national anthem. At this point we have decided that our children will not be subjected to a JW upbringing, however on more than one occasion my daughter started singing the national anthem and other holiday songs at the KH. We immediately would hush her up, hoping no one else heard, but a few months ago after telling her to stop singing my daughter gave me this sad and utterly confused look on her face, and it just broke my heart to pieces. She was so proud that she knew all these songs by heart and she wanted to show off for her friends at the KH, and I give her this stern warning never to sing those songs outside the home again. It was then that I turned to my wife and for the first time told her I want out. The problem is that my wife and her mom have this incredible bond, they are almost like best friends, and she told me she does not want to jeopardize that. So now I'm stuck, trapped in this pool of lies, and there is nothing I can do about it. Over the last year I have been compiling scriptures and evidence from the internet should the day come that we break the news to our families and explain, should they let us, why we are leaving. I must thank the people on this forum as most of my best material is from here. I am really sorry for going on so long, I just wanted to give everyone a little background as to what I am going through. Thanks for listening.