Ok, it’s been six pages but I have to jump on and go back to the original post.
AE……….First, Are you aware that it is a disfellowshipping offense to come to these websites, let alone participate in them??? It puzzles me the amount of time you spend here.
I am an active JW and I come here at my peril. Why? Because I enjoy the honesty, brutality, history, and sometimes vulgarity of people that I share a common background with. It’s oddly refreshing.
I was raised in the Truth and like ATJ and many others here, I had the goal of being an elder since I was very young boy. I would sit in horrendously boring meetings and took notes in my Bible so that I would be able to help others when the time came. Eventually I became a MS for 10 yrs and an elder for 14. The time had come for me to utilize all that I had labored for all my life.
Then a Nazi body of elders removed me for a reason I won’t post for fear of identification. But safe to say it wasn’t for a sin. I had merely violated one of their pet peeves. After that people that respected me and sought me out for help and counsel lowered their eyes and avoided me on the street. I and my family continued to be treated in a brutal and thoughtless manner by the elders.
This treatment caused us to become introverted and isolated for self-preservation. I developed some negative lifestyle habits in order to cope with the unimaginable pain. I could go on and on with shocking example after example. But I won’t.
Now I ask you, who am I going to talk about that with??? You can’t talk negative about the elders to fellow JW. Most people wouldn’t believe me anyway. If they believed me they would lose THEIR respect for these brothers. No win situation. Professional help is frowned upon. So you suffer in silence until…………..
I come here because I get comfort in writing about my own experience anonymously. I get comfort in hearing others whose stories are worse than my own. I get comfort in just hearing the Truth about the way things are and not the regurgitated bullshit propaganda from the ORG. I get comfort in knowing that I’m not the only one. I get comfort in reading how others give ones like me a reassuring word.
The softball question you ask “is it better to be raised in the Truth or brought in?” is more for a car group of sisters out in FS on a Saturday morning. It’s not surprising you get the kind of response from those here. Some here are dealing with deeper more complicated issues that affect our faith.
So I ask “why do you come here”? I’m not saying you can’t, but it’s still makes me curious. I was told to get off this site when I made my first post and I didn’t think that was right. I only expressed my opinion.
It sounds to me that you need a friend. If you’re looking for companionship, why not call someone from the KH and go out and have a soda? Maybe study the WT together?
But you can still come here and express your opinion, whatever it is.
You just might want to rethink how often you express it and who you are asking it of.
