There is nothing so real as a personal story. Tatiana, you have given us all a gift, a picture of your sweet heart. Scully is so right that committing this story to paper - and now for us- is a lot of work. I expect as you get closer to now, the writing will get harder. It did for me. I worked out many of the hurts and wounds of long ago. I have new challenges today. I do not have my life sorted out in to neat packages, labelled and wrapped and stored away. Real life does not resolve itself as easily as a novel.
Please, I hope, I pray, the raven haired girl is finding her way free of her bitterness. I know Tatiana, that you are coming out all right.