Hey Christopher,
So much truth in what you say. You really have a grasp on where your at.... the good and the bad of it the miserable and the sad of it!
You say life has no meaning? you feel sad.... a conscious mind only for the sake of knowing you're going to die?
We have all allowed this religion to take a serious chunk out of us emotionally. Where else would someone who is so full of good and honesty be so f>>kd up. ME INCLUDED of course.
Take a BREATH!.......... allow yourself the dignity to feel bad and miserable at times ..............But be cognizant of the fact that it alsoimportant to identify or recognize feelings of depression and seek help when it becomes all too much.
TRY NOT TO ALLOW YOURSELF THE LUXURY OF A NEGATIVE THOUGHT ............................. FOR HALF A DAY!
SOMEWHERE THERE HAS TO BE SOME KIND OF REWARD FOR US PERSONALLY AFTER HAVING GONE THROUGH ALL THIS B.S.!