Agreed PS, searching is very valuable. I have alot more questions than I have answers, thats why I come here. I like to see several peoples view points and yes, I decide for myself, I dont let other people decide what I believe for me, not the athiests, other groups , or other christians. I let the wt do that for me for over 20 yrs, and nobody here is going to do that for me now.
In my view, the nature of God is a mystery, we aren't God, we are not always going to have answers in black & white. Thats what I love about freedom in Christ. We can have different viewpoints. We aren't jws anymore, we dont have to have all the answers, we dont have to be right. Sometimes, or alot, I think people on this board (not speaking of you) are looking for black or white answers to questions we are just not going to get. I try to just practice child like faith. I believe Christ is the Son of God, born of a virgin, raised from the dead. Everything else for me is a surprise, I love surprises.