I'm sure that if you read up to this point in 'Crisis of Conscience', you were probably already sick to your stomach. It's the consequences of this policy and how it was carried out at that time--and how it continues to be carried out--that really show the true face of this religion. It would be hard to believe if I hadn't experienced it firsthand at my own committee, when the key question I was asked at the end was: "Do you believe this is God's organization?" Nothing about my belief in the Bible, Jesus, the resurrection, anything of that sort.
The implications of the false teachings and false predictions which were well-documented in print were just no big deal to the elders. None of it had any deeper meaning to them. One of them said he wouldn't let that stop him from serving God, yet he couldn't grasp that this isn't how serving God should be. What the elder who told me that didn't seem to realize was that he was doing the very thing the WT would warn members of 'Christendom' not to do--pretend that false teachings don't matter, and leave any real understanding of the Bible to 'my pastor'.
The Bible itself warns us not to be babes tossed about by every teaching. Yet the entire history of the religion is just that--being tossed about by every single new teaching, here and there and back to the same place again.
Page 13 of the classic book 'Millions Now Living Will Never Die' has an interesting quote that stayed with me and helped me through the worst of it:
"Every man should be persuaded in his own mind and no man should permit himself to be deterred from examining a question based on the Bible because a clergyman or any one else makes the unsupported assertion that it is dangerous or unworthy of consideration. Error always seeks the dark, while truth is enhanced by the light. Error never desires to be investigated. Light always courts a thorough and complete investigation."
--sd-7