Firstly, I don't know why I don't believe in God. Like a lot of witnesses I spent a lot of time investigating other religions and the bible after I left, I also read Hawkins book and a few others. But there was nothing in particular that lead me to this conclusion. I just don't believe in God like I don't believe in Santa Claus.
If my family could accept that I'm not interested in their religion, that would be the end of the matter. But every time I visit they start up with this little scripture, that thought for the day.
I always keep my mouth shut, read whatever crap they ask. I even quote scriptures right back at them. Sometimes I even get into theoretical debates that I don't even believe in,To some extent they relish this, always thinking I'm gonna come around soon.
My head screams bbbbuuulll ccccrrraaappp but I never say anything. After 15 years, I have had enough, I just want to "come out". I don't know if I can though