Yan Bibiyan: I am almost 32 now, my first 12 years were under the communist regime. I was still too young to leave a lasting impression on me, but it's easier to understand how the high-control environment works on a nationwide level.
I was thinking maybe communist oppression made it even more easy for some to accept the cult, because of the familiarity. The communists had the power for about 40 years, so after democracy came, even the youngest persons who knew from experience what liberty was, were 50-60 years old. Most of the persons only ever knew the high control. Not surprisingly at all, JWs after the revolution had a huge increase here - also thanks to the fact that the people were not afraid to join a religion. I remember one elder told me he saw two big waves: after '89 (the revolution), and just before 2000. He also added the majority of both of these waves left the organization.
It seems I'm hijacking my own thread; by my heart I would like to just forget this whole deal, and start over my life - I got angry countless time at myself that I made that wrong choice back then when my wife (girlfriend back then) told me we have to break up because I'm a "wordly". There was a mild anecdote there, she quoted me the verse "you can't be friends with God and friends with the world too". So I asked her "Am I the world?" She never managed to explain her choice well, because back then she wasn't so "strong" either - another word for "indoctrinated". If only I would have made the right choice - but I knew she loved me, and I loved her. I'm afraid I was too yielding - she didn't make one step to accomodate our differences, and I went all the way to her. That's not a good way to start a marriage.
Well, but that is over now. I'm partly glad I'm finally out, I just feel the price I paid was not proportional to my thoughtless act back then 10 years ago.
Anyone knows if I can change that sign on my topic? I put that by mistake, and edited it quickly after posting to switch to , but when viewing Active Topics it still shows the original thumbs up, and there's nothing to be thumbing up about here.