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miseryloveselders
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BBC news re Nathan Phillips xjw
by Curtains inhttp://news.bbc.co.uk/local/somerset/hi/people_and_places/religion_and_ethics/newsid_9367000/9367220.stm.
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You ever go through extended moments where nothing satisfies you, to the point you wouldn't mind dying?
by miseryloveselders indon't get me wrong, this isn't a call for help or anything like that.
i'm not about to do anything stupid, just feeling a little down and exhausted tonight.
i feel defeated, even though i don't feel as if i'm battling anything.
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miseryloveselders
I wanted to say, thank you all for your thoughts and support. Some days I go through it, and its not always because of this religion, at least not on the surface anyway. I really don't know what to say right now. I'm feeling a lot better today. I'm not hocking green and yellow stuff on the sidewalk when walking down the street. The antibiotic appears to have worked its magic. The next week or so, will be the proof. Just have to wait and see how it plays out. I felt good today, at work, when I came home, today has been a pretty good day. Exhausting as all Mondays are, and tommorrow is really gonna be rough. Ya know what? I'm looking forward to it.
Again, thank you to each and every one of you. This forum is therapeutic in that it allows me to express myself, but also I get to read the thoughts and experiences of others who are going through this life affected by the WT too. It puts things in perspective to me, helps me to never wallow to much in my own misery. That would be selfish of me to think its all about me. Again, thank you, all of you. I'm gonna try to PM some of you where its warrented, forgive me please if I neglect any of you.
Again, thank you.
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Rahm Emanuel Off The Ballot In Chicago Per The Court!
by minimus init looks like the former chief of staff of president obama is a man without a home.
poor guy!.
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miseryloveselders
I listen to NO "Politicians" nor anyone from "Mainstream Media"...both are "Pathological Liars"...I get my "Intelligence" from the people known as the "White Hats" and they are all over the world in ALL the world's current intelligence agencies. and from the GFL...which is the one that REALLY CONTROLS EVERYTHING!!!
They are the people that will be reasponsible for ALL the coming changes...this world is NOT run be who you may think it is...the GFL runs EVERYTHING...THEY ALWAYS HAVE...SOON WE WILL ALL FIND OUT.
So let me ask you a question. What's goverment, if words don't have any meaning?
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Video and pictures just coming in from the world wide protest!
by koolaid-man init was thrilling to participate in the world wide protest, jan, 21-23 2011 exposing the watchtower organization for their policies on deliberately breaking up up families.
we thank all those involved this past weekend for their passion and commitment to help free those trapped in falsehood.
i am aware that many on this forum do not believe in protesting against the watchtower society,and i respect their position.
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miseryloveselders
While I don't 100% agree with the tactics utilized on his website, I will say his protesting in this fashion out in the public is admirable. It takes courage to be able to go out there and do what he's doing, and I respect that. I tip my hat to ya Rick, you're a bigger man than me.
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Rahm Emanuel Off The Ballot In Chicago Per The Court!
by minimus init looks like the former chief of staff of president obama is a man without a home.
poor guy!.
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miseryloveselders
Actually Misery, he had won two previous rulings already, so it's not out of the blue.
IF thats the case, then who's this judge? Where's the resistance coming from?
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Rahm Emanuel Off The Ballot In Chicago Per The Court!
by minimus init looks like the former chief of staff of president obama is a man without a home.
poor guy!.
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miseryloveselders
I seem to recall them pulling this same stunt with Santorum one year when running for the PA Senate, and Hilliary right before she ran for the NY Senate, or during the course of. Interesting how this just came up out of nowhere. You'd think after all that fundraising and hoopla of him leaving the White House, they would have had all their bases covered to avoid something as embarrasing as this. This is the equivalent to Arnold running for the Presidency under the assumption that his out of country birth wouldn't be an issue.
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Call me paranoid, but its possible that this 30 hour initiative is a weeding out process....a cull if you will...
by miseryloveselders inwe've discussed a few potential reasons why the wt is promoting april 2011 as a month of special activity.
reasons include manipulating statistics, and trying to provide some kind of spark to increasingly apathetic and discouraged congregations.
i'm sure there are others i'm missing too, feel free to include those.
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We've discussed a few potential reasons why the WT is promoting April 2011 as a month of special activity. Reasons include manipulating statistics, and trying to provide some kind of spark to increasingly apathetic and discouraged congregations. I'm sure there are others I'm missing too, feel free to include those. Yesterday, after an incident at the KH, I'm wondering if there's another motive. I'll tell ya what happened.
As some of you know, I've been a little ill this month. Had a couple bugs going on, and I'm starting to get back on my feet again. I was looking forward to attending the meeting on Sunday as I hadn't been there in a while. I enjoyed my time there for the most part as it was good to see old friends, children running and playing, and people generally in a good mood. It's hard to be cranky around a group of people smiling and enjoying one another's company. After the meeting, I had to pass out KMs, and magazines to those in my group. It was also our turn to clean and secure the building. So I hung around after the meeting a little longer than I typically do. I was leaning against a wall right outside of the library, and one of the pioneers approached me. She's a little eccentric, but a genuinely nice lady. Her husband is an elder, and he has some significant health problems. I wonder at times when we'll get the phone call that he's passed. I don't know him that well, but he's nice guy, and I'll miss him when that happens. She's significantly younger than him, and considering their age difference, and his health problems, its difficult for him to keep up with her. She's a dynamic woman, a go-getter, quite vibrant and full of life. As a result, he's often lonely, and its not uncommon for him to call certain folks in the middle of day, only to call them later on that evening just to talk about nothing in general. Note to self, don't marry someone a couple decades younger than you because eventually, you will get old and she just might not want to play nurse.
Well yesterday after the meeting, she approached me and asked how I was, and I responded in kind. Then she comes closer to me, and inquires as to whether or not I'm going to auxilliary pioneer in April? This question kinda caught me off guard, as I wasn't really expecting anyone to ask me this. In hindsight, I should have expected this question, because despite my own personal cynical and apathetic nature, this is actually a big deal for some. Well, I responded to her, "I really don't know at this time." She responded, "WHAT?!?!?" Then she grabbed my suit jacket with both of her hands for emphasis, and said, "you better do it!!! What do you mean you don't know! You have to do it! I tell you what, you have until Tuesday to make your decision!" At that point, I'm somewhat embarrased, yet its rare that I lose my sense of humor, so I responded, "Can it wait until two Tuesdays from now for my decision?" She eased up on my jacket, and said, "alright, I'll let you have two weeks from now!" I knew this conversation wasn't quite over yet, so I embraced for what was coming next, my interrogation. She goes, "So do you work everyday?" "Yes." "Typically 9-5?" "Typically I get off a little later." "My husband and I can work with you every evening for an hour or so after you get off work." "Wow, that would be nice, but I have to think about it. I've got a lot on my plate right now, and April is too far away for me to make that decision at this time." At that point, my knight in shining armour arrived, "Misery, can you give me a hand counting the money in the boxes?" "I'd be glad to!"
Don't get me wrong about this sister, she's eccentric, but she has a good heart on her. I wasn't exactly forthcoming with her regarding my hesitation to commit on saying yes to auxillary pioneering in April. The real reason why I couldn't tell her that I hadn't reached a decision yet, had nothing to do with too much on my plate. To be completely honest with you, I actually had made my decision as to whether or not I would pioneer during the month of April. My decision was actually, no, I'm not going to do it. I have no intention on pioneering during that month or any other month in the near or distant future. The reason being goes back to what I mentioned at the outset of this post, apathy and discouragement. The general public in our territories are extremely apathetic and its worn off on me and others in the congregation to the point that I find field service discouraging. If I'm already averaging anywhere from 15-20 hours a month, and accomplishing absolutely zilch, why would I want to spend an additional 15-30 hours extra accomplishing "double zilch?"
That leads me to what I feel is a possible ulterior motive behind this 30 hour initiative. Its no secret on this message board that this organization has mastered the art of subtle peer pressure. Kids, and teenagers get baptized often enough not because they've really dedicated themselves to Jehovah, but because their families and congregations are looking at them funny because they're yet to get dipped. Young brothers reach out for privileges not because they want to do more, but because its whats expected of them. I can testify to that from my own personal experiences. This 30 hour initiative is in the same vein as the aforementioned. This pioneer that approached me and was agasped that I hadn't made up my mind yet, did exactly what this organization expects of the truly indoctrinated. In her mind she was encouraging me, in my mind however, she was pressuring me. I'm in a position where I don't really have to answer to anyone, with the exception of the CO, and those in my field service group. So her actions don't bother me too much, and besides she was being playful. She means well and I love her.
However I fear for others who will find themselves in the same predicament in other congregations across the States. They're going to be asked whether or not they're going to pioneer during the month of April. Depending on their answer, they may get viewed poorly by others in the congregation. Whether this is intentional or not is debateable, but make no mistake about it, this has the potential to be a massive congregational "marking" inititiative. A distinction will be made between those who appreciate the Slave's provisions and arrangements, and those like myself, who do not. Maybe I'm looking too far into this, I don't know. What do you think?
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JACK LALANNE DIES.........
by wasblind injacklalanne (born september 26, 1914) is an american fitness, exercise, nutritional expert, and motivational speaker who has been called "the godfather of fitness".. i grew up watchin' him on tv.
i hope he wasn't a jehovah's witness, he would have been disappointed.
at the time of his demise..
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miseryloveselders
He bet on the Bears and the Jets, from what I heard. Seriously though, its funny how these guys don't outlive George Burns who didn't lift anything but cigars and alcohol. I will concede some of the pictures of Lalanne as an old man were quite impressive. There's days I step out of the gym and I'm feeling real proud because of that pump you have post workout. It lasts a little bit into the next day, and then it goes back down again. I wish I had the time to maintain that pump, but life's responsibilities beckon.
But hey, RIP Jack Lalanne.
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miseryloveselders
Watching Rex Ryan slam his headset down was too funny. I howled looking at him. I heard Jack Lalanne put his money on both the Bears and the Jets........now he's dead. I know, bad taste.....my bad. Happy for Tomlin, as I respect him as a man. He reminds me of my old barber. Tough disciplinarian, but not unbalanced like Mike Singeltary. I'm happy for Aaron Rodgers too, and the Packers organization. Especially when Brett Farve showed his azz after Green Bay didn't make a good effort to retain him. In my opinion the organization made their decision in that Thursday night Dallas/Packers game when Farve started gunslinging, and Rodgers took over the second half and looked like a veteran. Sports Illustrated picked the Steelers at the beginning of the season. We'll see how much of an expert they are. Good game though. I missed half of the Bears game due to the friggin meeting. I've said it before, when Cutler is good, he's up there. When he's bad though, with the exception of Tony Romo, I can't think of anybody worse.
I wonder if Rex Ryan's wife got her toenails painted for him. The Jets, they're a criminal club if there ever was one. Rex's wife is a freak, Santonio abuses women, Edwards abuses midgets and drives drunk, their coaches aren't above cheating in the middle of the game even tripping players running down the sideline. They needed to lose tonight, for the kids. What kind of message would it have sent to the children. Not that I care or anything, just saying.
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You ever go through extended moments where nothing satisfies you, to the point you wouldn't mind dying?
by miseryloveselders indon't get me wrong, this isn't a call for help or anything like that.
i'm not about to do anything stupid, just feeling a little down and exhausted tonight.
i feel defeated, even though i don't feel as if i'm battling anything.
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miseryloveselders
Don't get me wrong, this isn't a call for help or anything like that. I'm not about to do anything stupid, just feeling a little down and exhausted tonight. I feel defeated, even though I don't feel as if I'm battling anything. I guess thats partially true, as I've been physically ill for the past few weeks or so. This past week, I finally caved in and emailed my PCP, and she put me on an antibiotic, so I'm starting to get my health back. The weather might be playing a role as well, maybe I'm having a bit of seasonal depression, I don't know. We were slammed with snow yesterday and last night. Tonight and through tommorrow, we have a serious cold front coming through. So I'm not planning on leaving the pad anytime soon this weekend, with the exception of the meeting this Sunday so long as I'm not still coughing excessively. You know, I'm actually looking forward to the meeting this Sunday? I guess I'm at the end of my rope.
This mood I'm experiencing, I can't really blame it on the JW crap, as its not really whats affecting me at this time. I'm just really unsatisfied with life right now. I can't seem to find pleasure in too much of anything. Had I known this is what reaching your early thirties was about, and I had the option of an off switch with no emotional hangups, or repurcussions, I'd consider it. During my lunch break today, I walked through town, and the world just looked wicked to me. I couldn't even find the crazy or homeless alcoholics entertaining. I enjoy conversing with them usually. Surprisingly you can learn some interesting things from the outsiders of this society. Their teeth might be missing, their clothing smells like funk on steroids, and they may be winos, but they do have some insight worth considering, and great senses of humor. Today, I just didn't want to hear it.
I went up to an ATM machine, and took out ten dollars, the bill ripped, and the machine sucked back in one half. I thought to myself, great. Thankfully the bank was open, and the tellers have access to the machine. So I explained the situation to this teller, and she responded that if the other half is in the machine, she'll see what she can do for me. Otherwise she stated, I'd have to file a dispute. I'm thinking, yeah whatever. While she was doing that, I struck up a conversation with a security guard working the bank. I asked him, whether or not he gets any action. He smiled at me and said, "hell yeah, I do. I'm not a bad looking fella bruh." I clarified what I meant with him, "thats not what I meant. I mean as a security guard, do you get any action in here. You ever have to handle a situation in here?" I guess I disappointed him, being that I didn't want to discuss the Romeo side of his profession. By that time, thankfully the teller came back with the other half of my ten dollar bill. She took my half, and then gave me a crisp new ten dollar bill. I always wondered how they handled these situations. I shook the security guard's hand and wished him a good weekend and went back to work. Any other day, I would have loved to engage him just to see how far he'd go exagerating to me about his romantic prowess. But, not today, I wasn't in the mood.
Earler this evening, I was browsing through some old comic books which I've always loved, and I just tossed them across the room. Megatron threatening to eviscerate Blitzwing as thoroughly as he did Starscream, just didn't bring a smile to my face. I tried drinking a beer, and it tasted gross, as if urine would have been more to my liking. I fried a pork chop an hour ago, and it tasted foul to me, I might as well have attempted eating it raw. With the exception of discussing Cibulkova with Minimus earlier today, even beautiful women have me going, meh. I feel like even if Cibulkova was in my room right now, and there for the taking, and begging me, I'd ask her kindly to leave. I tried reading the Bible, and found it to be insufficient. I went to my Edgar Allan Poe collection, and his words which usually delight me, irritated me in this instance. Right now I'm finding some comfort in my bedroom being dimly lit, with a cup of tea. I'm looking at a bottle of Xanax, and Ambien, and I haven't touched either in a couple weeks. I kinda want to tune off and out tonight, as in black out, and not wake up until preferably 10 to 10:30 am. Matter fact, I think I just found my outlet, kind of like running into an old genuine friend who never lets me down.
Let me ask you, and I feel like I've done this same thread a million times, but let me ask you, you ever go through this? Particulary those of you who supposedly did what you were supposed to in the way of adult responsibilities, did life ever become a drag in your thirties or forties? If it did, was there anything that brightened your outlook?