Dear Stephanie
Awakening to TATT is painful.
Getting through the initial turbulence as intact as possible is crucial - a good (talking) therapist is invaluable.
There are a number of phases in this process.
For example grief and anger.
I pray you make it to the revenge phase with all guns blazing so to speak.
The best revenge on a miserable controlling cult is to live a full, successful, happy and moral life without any of their "help".
You can and will eventually get to this exciting and fun phase.
Your life will be better than you could ever have imagined.
You are free after all.
The possibilities are awesome.
Best wishes on the journey to a great future.
Fernando
PS - Oh and you no longer have to depend on a rabid cult for a cultist as a life partner...