Hey Celestial!
Congratulations on trying to "rebuild" your spirituality.
The only scriptural way to do this is to yield to and embrace the priceless, generous, full, and unabridged gospel message from the "God of Abraham". This is however not something that the "god of religion" will tolerate.
This is why Watchtower religionists refer to themselves as "publishers of the good news" whilst totally ignorant of the "good news" according to Moses, Isaiah, Psalms, Paul and others.
The scale of the problem becomes evident when we consider that more than half the Bible's 152-odd references to the "good news" are by Paul!!
Best wishes on the journey to becoming a simple Jesus follower rather than a follower of men and their inane organisations, ideologies and dogma.