Hi Clark,
First welcome to this discussion forum. It's an interesting place with many viewpoints. I'm not gay, but hate the term "straight," as if that's the right way to be. It's tiring hearing folks rail about sex but think nothing about watching countless killings on TV, etc.
I'm certain some on this group are gay. Perhaps they can share their experiences and how they are dealing with their JW history and families. Have you been to, http://www.gayxjw.org/ ? If not, take a look--you are not alone.
--JAVA, counting time at the Coffee Shop