YOu need to drink a couple of cold ones or smoke some weed or take some prozac and chill out.
Christmas is about enjoying friendship and family, giving freely and wholeheartedly, putting up beautiful decorations to offset the gloomy winter.
How is giving people you care about gifts "commercialized", what do you want to do make the gifts from scratch yourself. Okay, buy a loom I guess, or build a welding shop in your garage.
I'm not a Christain, I could care less about the Jesus fable. That really has nothing to do with it.
Wintertime is gloomy, if there was no Jesus instead of Christmas we would have something else to brighten up and cheer up the gloom.
Human beings needs reasons to share together, to come together, to celebrate together, we are social animals. If we didn't have "Christmas" we would make something else up.
The best gifts are things that you can only know to give beause you know the person well.
Its not that hard. If you have room put up a real tree and decorate it. If you dont have room get a smaller artificial tree and decorate that. Put up some lights. THINK about your friends, co workers and family in terms of what kind of gifts would they like based on things you know about them. I gave some co workers each a red Swingline stapler one year becaause they were all talking about the movie Office Space. They all LOVED it.
Wrapping presents just takes a little practice, don't be afraid to throw some of the wrapping paper away because you mess up. Just do the best you can. Why do you need to tell anyone you can't wrap a gift?
If you know that people are going to be getting you gifts, then you get them gifts too. Doesn't have to be expensive, the thoughtful gifts are the best. Like refrigerator magnets with their bail bondsman's phone number on them, you know something practical. That way you avoid the whole awkwardness of having to give a lecture when someone was just being thoughtful.
I was in the cult for 22 years and went through all the same things you are, but I came to realize that times for joyousness are precious and we should take part. No one really cares about the pagan origins. I don't think they really care about the Jesus fable. I know I don't. I still LOVE Christmas though.