This is a simple question but one I hope someone will respond to without saying " delusion'.
I was a born in and prayed to Jehovah all my life. I felt at times I received answers to my prayers. I often felt a strong connection to God and even felt that silver cord that many talk about. I felt a powerful sense of peace and sense of direction many times. It helped me get through many hard times.
So what was happening if God does not exist ? Where did all that peace and sense of direction in my life come from?
How about giving yourself credit for working out what was best for you and listening to that positive part of you instead of giving into negative thinking?