I get the feeling like your believing times are reminiscent of an sober person reflecting upon past alcoholism.
ummmm no, it's not like that at all darlin. At least not for me. How do you feel when you see people who are still completely enthralled by JW beliefs? Imagine yourself having a conversation with one and it's soooo clear to you but they will defend it despite all evidence to the contrary. That's how it feels.
Since divesting myself of the NEED to believe in something, I don't see myself as a glass half empty person at all. It's actually enriched my life and when I don't know - I say I don't know. Then I think about it, look at things from all sides, draw a logical conclusion and carry on with my life which is all about making human connections and being loving to everyone, seeing humanity for what it is and appreciating all sides of what that means. I've learned to not judge others - something that can be a challenge for people of faith because of the very nature of that faith, and attempting to understand why people do what they do whether good or bad. You don't need a belief in anything higher than yourself to accomplish that.