Yes, usually we have no contact. That's a good thing, since discussions get emotional and only end in frustration. But, for right now, i am having to take them up on their offer to watch my little faeries once a week, while i work some on the weekend. I hate having to expose them to my parents' possible mind-workings. I'm looking for a solution to this. That's a whole nother story. It is my goal for my little people and me to be distant from them.. to love them from afar.
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The 'you don't look happy' theory, the anorexic masturbator, and other crazy cunundrums(?)
by freeflyingfaerie inso it was that we were having another emotionally charged conversation, my parents and i. in the course of it, they condescendingly told me i wasnt happy, because i just dont look like it to them (they don't even know me anymore, as we have no real relationship-- the never-ending assumptions they make of others infuriates me to no end!!).
my theory~~~ of course df'd family and ex-friends don't look happy to them!
what they see (if they ever encounter us) is someone who is dead to them, has been publicly flogged emotionally and mentally~~~why would we fake a smile and pretend everything is normal and ok when we see them?
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Do you still pray? Why?
by gubberningbody inhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jk6ilzaaami.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uazdcs-rmf4.
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freeflyingfaerie
Yes, to the universe. When i feel overwhelmed or need to calm myself inside i will take a nature walk and just want to connect with all the beauty all around, and want to just feel love and a closeness to all that is warm and peaceful in this universe. I don't believe in the 'God' i once did, but i like to believe that there is another dimension, realm, something or someone(s) supernatural that we cant completely understand. Sometimes amazing coincidences happen and i wonder if there is a meaning to it. It feels good, though to not pray anymore to the 'God' that was created by the witnesses
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The 'you don't look happy' theory, the anorexic masturbator, and other crazy cunundrums(?)
by freeflyingfaerie inso it was that we were having another emotionally charged conversation, my parents and i. in the course of it, they condescendingly told me i wasnt happy, because i just dont look like it to them (they don't even know me anymore, as we have no real relationship-- the never-ending assumptions they make of others infuriates me to no end!!).
my theory~~~ of course df'd family and ex-friends don't look happy to them!
what they see (if they ever encounter us) is someone who is dead to them, has been publicly flogged emotionally and mentally~~~why would we fake a smile and pretend everything is normal and ok when we see them?
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freeflyingfaerie
i dont mean to come off as vulgar or anything, i'm using words to vent!!!! i've been having a very difficult time of this. The religion still affects me, even after leaving it. It doesn't seem fair. It isn't fair. They still try to control people once they've chosen a different path by using psychological abuse, basically. There is inner peace that i have freed myself and think for myself, but it still hurts that my choices are not respected by those who used to be closest to me.
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The 'you don't look happy' theory, the anorexic masturbator, and other crazy cunundrums(?)
by freeflyingfaerie inso it was that we were having another emotionally charged conversation, my parents and i. in the course of it, they condescendingly told me i wasnt happy, because i just dont look like it to them (they don't even know me anymore, as we have no real relationship-- the never-ending assumptions they make of others infuriates me to no end!!).
my theory~~~ of course df'd family and ex-friends don't look happy to them!
what they see (if they ever encounter us) is someone who is dead to them, has been publicly flogged emotionally and mentally~~~why would we fake a smile and pretend everything is normal and ok when we see them?
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freeflyingfaerie
So it was that we were having another emotionally charged conversation, my parents and i. In the course of it, they condescendingly told me i wasnt happy, because i just dont look like it to them (they don't even know me anymore, as we have no real relationship-- the never-ending assumptions they make of others infuriates me to no end!!)
my theory~~~ of course df'd family and ex-friends don't look happy to them! What they see (if they ever encounter us) is someone who is DEAD to them, has been publicly flogged emotionally and mentally~~~why would we fake a smile and pretend everything is normal and ok when we see them?
Speaking of DEAD, I asked them if they really feel alright about not having contact with me. The cold reply was something along the lines of 'we're preparing for your eventual death, like the Israelites something something'...and on and on, I forget the rest, as it never ceases to stun me when they talk like this. !!!!!
And I had to mention that I dont feel that priorities are straight when abuses, against children in particular, are allowed, but then its considered a huge crime to pleasure your own self. I said for that ALONE i would never, ever dream of "coming back" , as they say. The response was that 'masturbation' is arousing you sexually (no duh!) and that it could tempt you to fornication (what a wierd word) - and that one should 'deaden themself'-- and that one should 'train' themselves not to enjoy that, like an anorexic trains themself to not enjoy food! --( isnt anorexia a sickness?!) Each day I thank the universe that I woke myself up from the JW coma and am no longer feeding my mind such backward ideas
On a lighter note, the weather has been beautiful
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Top 10 Ways to Offend a Jehovah's Witness
by JimmyPage in1. sing a duet of the national anthem with your gay life partner.
2. smoke a cigarette after donating blood.
3. join the high school football team and have sex with a cheerleader.
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freeflyingfaerie
Hilarious!! I needed that !
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Longtime Lurkers?
by Bluegill inwhen i joined this forum i mentioned that i was a lurker for 3 or 4 years before i actually joined.
it did take me a long time!
anyway i posted a comment on a hobby forum that i belong to and this was part of someones reply..... "btw, how is it possible to have been on this forum for 6 years, and only have 8 posts?".
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freeflyingfaerie
i've been an on and off short-time lurker, and this site is therapy for me, just reading others' posts. I laugh, i cry..it feels like there is an understanding here like nowhere else. Its been so nice to lurk and get a fix of laughter at the painful insanity that once was our lives. sometimes i have found myself in the fetal position in my ovrwhelming sorrow as i grieve the family i have lost , i am dead to them, but still my heart beats..
thank you, whoever created this website, thank you..
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Dubs - Paradoxes From Hell
by Farkel indubs - paradoxes from hell.
jesus said his yoke was kindly and light.. dubs brag their religion is the "hardest religion in the world.".
the bible tells children to honor their parents.. the wts tells children to betray their parents.. if dubs really live in a "spiritual paradise," why do their lives have to be threatened to stay in it?.
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freeflyingfaerie
pure genius...thank you for putting it so well
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Why does the WTBS hate sex so much?
by highdose innow i know they try to control everything and pretty much ban anything.
but sex seems to be somthing they can't stand and would like to get rid of completly if they could.
so many articles and so much conusel about not having sex or having anything to do with sex from any angle at all.
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freeflyingfaerie
Have you seen the movie Chocolat? The chocolat is so yummy and sinfully tempting, and forbidden.. and it becomes the obsession of the preacher-man, he eventually just cant take it anymore and he is found one morning passedd out lying in a wonderfull mess of chocolat decadence, dripping from his mouth...its great!! wouldnt it be just fab to hear of the letting go of the sex-suppression. It is one of the pleasures in life, for crying out loud!
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Why does the WTBS hate sex so much?
by highdose innow i know they try to control everything and pretty much ban anything.
but sex seems to be somthing they can't stand and would like to get rid of completly if they could.
so many articles and so much conusel about not having sex or having anything to do with sex from any angle at all.
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freeflyingfaerie
poopsiecakes , you are just hilarious!!
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Just out and so happy!
by ange2.0 ini have just gotten out and am free at last!
my brother did so a few years ago and has been such an amazing help to me these last few weeks.
i was raised a jw, disfellowshipped when i was 17, married a non believer and then dragged back in by my family.
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freeflyingfaerie
Hi there! Welcome! Im new here myself, but already feeling at home. Isn't it fanastically fabullously wonderfully great to be free! To not have to censor your thoughts to the umph degree to be certain that you don't 'offend' anyone or 'bring reproach', or maybe even be "blood-guilty"! It is wonderful, isn't it to take off that shiny ginormously heavy JW guilt-fear suit we all wore once upon a time?! That was really a high-maintenence piece of work. And isn't it great to realize that there are different ways to see things?
So happy too for your son, my little faeries, and all the other little ones who's parents have liberated themselves from the thinking that can cause so much stress and burden, and hurt.
Happy trails.......