~~starfish~~, but i usually sleep very sound
freeflyingfaerie
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What does your sleep position reveal about your personality?
by Think About It inmine is the yearner position.. .
fetus position - a whopping 41% of participants sleep in this curled-up manner.
women are twice as likely to rest like this and it is listed as the most common position.
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I used to spend 3 hours a day here...thanks for my lifeline! THANKS ALL!
by oompa ini did that more days than i could count...i logged on at work all day and would check it hourly...then all evening at home.
i did this for a full two years i think.
this place is an incredible support group many of us may need due to the odd nature of many of our problems....that is what i used it for, even though many are here just for accurate information.. so thanks simon for caring enough all these years to compile and run this place....you have probably saved many lives...including mine btw but barely.....and of course you awesome contributors who came to my aid so many times....also a big thanks!!
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freeflyingfaerie
Yes! It's wonderful!!
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freeflyingfaerie
want to just clarify, i was disfellowshipped, i faded in the sense that i gradually left the religion of my entire family and of my whole life~~over the course of really about 6 months. Chose to meet w the elders for the inevitable disfellowshipping because i felt it was the right thing in my case, as so many friends and family were always hounding me, and i just needed to make it clear were i stood. That was what i personally needed to do so as to not feel hypocritical. Everyone's situation is so different
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freeflyingfaerie
When I was slowly coming out of the JW Coma, i stopped praying, stopped going out in 'service', missed more and more meetings, stopped answering phone calls for people to ask me to 'associate' with them, just going with what felt right~~and before i knew it, one day after a meeting i followed my heart, i looked around at all the 'brothers and sisters' and said to myself 'that was the last meeting I'm ever going to'..
..and it was. (that was January of 2009) And from that day forward, I kept walking...and walking...on my new path of freedom, and decided to take the backlash and hurt as it comes. And it did come. But not a day passes that i dont thank myself for listening to myself and fly away
The further i stepped away from it all, the more clear it was that it was a sick place to be. Its amazing to find that when you arent busy being brainwashed, you actually have thoughts and ideas of your own, and others have also. Original ones. The self-discovery and freedom from mind-control, life-control is worth the pain of losing family and friends ties. I want to be able to look in the mirror and recognize myself.
Enough about me. It is difficult sometimes, but once you see the cult for what it is, its a matter being true to yourself..
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How many of you were baptised at a young age?
by lepermessiah inone thing this site has made me reflect on the baptism practice in jw land.. many of us were raised in the religion, thus you were given the pressure early on to shoot for baptism as a goal.. i remember feeling bad because i waited until the ripe old age of 14 to take the plunge.. looking back, i realize that when i was 14, i didnt even know what my favorite color was, let alone have enough knowledge to make a life altering decision.
yet, growing up in that climate, i would say anyone who waited past their early teens to get baptised was viewed with great suspicion and was likely to be viewed as "bad association".
kids who took the dip at 8-9 years of age were viewed as "wise beyond their years" and the like.. how old were some of you when you were baptised, and what are your feelings on the matter?.
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freeflyingfaerie
I was 13 years. It was at Dodger's Stadium in Los Angeles, Ca. It felt like such a beautiful thing at the time.... wondering how Jesus must have felt at his baptism, seeing a pigeon fly overhead and thinking "this is my dove", and being totally taken in while looking around at a massive sea of 'brothers and sisters'. Now i realize what a small world I was a part of...
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If you felt/feel that you had/have good, close "friends" in the org, how did/does it feel to just give them up?
by Crisis of Conscience inthis is my biggest dilema.
although mentally i really feel i could walk away from the org right now, i still have genuine love for the people i have come to know over the years.
i love people!.
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freeflyingfaerie
I have mixed feelings about it. On one hand, its so good to not be around the cult mentality by being w them. But on the other hand, I miss some very close friends that i had over the years very much, and wish they would wake up.
I remember confiding in a really close friend as i was on my way out that it isnt personal, but I find myself on a different path now and dont relate to the congregation anymore. She was really hurt, and wrote me a letter full of guilt-tripping and threats, including 'you may not realize it, but satan is manipulating you.' When a person leaves the cult, it is a painful side-effect that we lose friends. I go in peace.
Its been wonderful that i've been making some really good friends with some amazing people, now that ive allowed myself to. As a jw, I closed myself off from so many wonderful people and experiences! sometimes i feel like a kid in a candy store! And people are very accepting of a freak like myself! its been a new lease on life to give up the congregation~~losing some friends, yes, but gaining so much!!
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The only reason most of us are here is......
by Quillsky in.....disfellowshipping, i think.. potential disfellowshipping, current disfellowshipping, disfellowshipping of people we love.. it's the most genius cult tool ever invented..
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freeflyingfaerie
I'm here for therapuetic purposes. With the posts i've been reading, it feels like this is a bringing together of so many people who have pulled themselves out of the religious trap set by jehovah's witnesses. It hurts, it hurts bad, and this is a good place to feel a sense of belonging or understanding. That's what im beginning to realize
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The only reason most of us are here is......
by Quillsky in.....disfellowshipping, i think.. potential disfellowshipping, current disfellowshipping, disfellowshipping of people we love.. it's the most genius cult tool ever invented..
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freeflyingfaerie
perhaps its a wonderful thing that there is disfellowshipping, it is helping me to keep a pretty safe distance from hearing much more of the preaching. it is sad to say, but the division between me and my family has allowed me to let go of so much that ive been told over the years
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Most people who are not JW's live with out moral restrain! All who have left the "Truth" regret it. June 15th WT
by life is to short inin the june 15th wt it says on page 9 i will just write it out as it is to hard and unbelievable to preface this.
so here it is.. "many who today are members of the christian congregation can tell you that before learning of and adopting jehovah's righteous standards, they lived without moral restrain.
yet, they were unsatisfied and unhappy.
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freeflyingfaerie
Darth has me in stitches!
The posts are put so well. I personally feel as if i untied wings that i always suspected i had. And who's to say that our freedom has to be used for hurting ourselves or others?
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Do you still pray? Why?
by gubberningbody inhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jk6ilzaaami.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uazdcs-rmf4.
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freeflyingfaerie
right now i'm praying for a way to get image from photobucket to here... i'm not in love with my avatar (no offense to the artist)