((((((((hugs))))))) Nelly my dear friend
You and I are out around the same time and so sweetie all I can say is we're going through the same thing!
So maybe we can talk about things and support one another each day as we go through this withdrawal from JW life.
You know I never expected to have any Armageddon dreams but, I do......I thought if I chose to leave that would be it. Nothing more.
Instead I am finding it difficult emotionally. I cannot believe it at all. I remember a girlfriend when I was in"the Truth" telling me about how there are Ex-Jw Support groups and she was laughing at how ridicules people can be. Back then I have to admit I found it silly myself and now it seems I am getting "a bit of my own back"so to speak.Now I am one of those people who found their whole belief system a lie and a scam.
The emotional part of my mind keeps thinking it must be "The Truth" how can it not be and cries......then another part shows me logically all the facts.....NGO, Pedophilia Cover-ups, Neglecting of Their Poor, Killing People with ever changing light....etc.
I am torn between what I was brainwashed to believe and what is real.It's like being on an ever spinning faster merry-go round at times.
I have to say though Nelly you and I are the blessed ones.We have no JW family. Some have lost even family as well as friends to this controlling manipulative cult.
So although it would seem un-fair..... Fair is a matter of prospective.
I find it ironic that next years year text is in James.....Draw Close To Jehovah And He Will Draw Close To You. Of course they mean through "Slave" but in reality Nelly if that's what we do....they can never NEVER take our Creator and His Son away from us.......although they are FAR removed from Him.
I believe we will heal from this but will GB ever recover from their own delusions when The WTBS fails? This will be very interesting to see.
So you can see it seems scary and un-fair to us......but we can see who truly has things worse.
Gotta love ya Nelly!!
Agape,
Utopian_Raindrops