((((Hugs)))) Patches,
I am so sorry you can't get on with your life compleatly.
When a person chooses to leave a way of life they should be able to build for themselves a new one that makes them happy and satisfied.
I think starting a new life is like moving to a new school when your a child.......you don't forget the old one...but the new one is very different and Foriegn.
When I was a kid my parents moved alot for awhile and I was always changing schools and homes.
I had this game I used to play with my self when walking into a new school......I would pretend I had always been there. I'd just close my eyes...regroup and walk in.
The goal was to speak to every new person as if they were an old friend and not let myself feel uncomfortable during the new schools RITUAL of the day.To pretend that's how it always was and always would be.
I know it worked not only by how I felt but, because many kids would comment about how they felt like they always knew me.When I became a teen It only took 2 days to get used to this one high school I moved to.
So try Patches to go about you New life and make it your own wonderful world the best you can on this crazy planet.
So you know....I am a disfellowshipped JW who plans on returning....still and all I am your neighbor and fellow human ....I want all people to be as happy as they can with the life they choose.
That's why I gave to you this advice. Jehovah's sun shines on everyone...and his rain waters the fields of all.
Hope this helped some sugar.
ty for listening.
bye bye 4 now!
agape,
Utopian_Raindrops