Hi scared ... welcome. So sorry for what you are going through. I have a daughters around your age. When you can get your mind to a place that this religion is just a bunch of craziness, then they will lose the power they have over you. Then, perhaps you can make it a game. Right now hearing the propoganda is probably torture to sit through those meetings, I know it was for me when i learned TTATT.
Realize that this is a game. You don't make the rules ... however ... the more you kiss a$$, the better it will go for you. If you want priveleges back, you will get them, make it a game, be the goodie goodie that they want, while inside you know it's just a game, you play it to your benefit until you are ready to quit the game ... then ... you WIN!
Best wishes.
We are here for you.