So this weekend my wife had a major grand mal seizure for the first time in her life. She was rushed to the ER. A few hours later while I was at her side she had another major one.
It was the scariest moment in my life. Her entire face turned blue and she stopped breathing. They brought her back. The doctors could not find a reason, but said that most likely it was brought on my stress. She told them that I was the major stress in her life. But I stayed by her side. She told her dad that it is because I am an apostate. He called the elders on me last night and told them that I was such an extreme apostate that I am giving my wife medical problems.
Watching her seize and pretty much die was the worst experience in my life. She asked me to find a new place to live. I had to tell my son and he immeditaly started crying.
I am so done. I can't even work today. I must look like a fucking nut sitting in my office with tears running down my face. Why would God let me go through this when I was fighting for him? Either he doesn't care, or he's just not there.
I'm done, guys.