Thanks for your comments MMXIV. As you say, far from any loyalty being rewarded, it was often just the opposite. Single sisters in particular had no status in the congregation and regardless of how many hours we put into the ministry each month we were still just lowly sisters with no say in the congregation other than to answer up at the Watchtower study and take part in those silly little plays sisters had to perform during the Theocratic Ministry School. There wasn't even a pioneer school to go to in those days, at least I was never invited to attend one!
Elders wives seemed to think they could order us about and rule our lives and the CO's wife interferred with my life to such an extent on one particular occasion that I became quite ill and depressed. As she was also a pioneer I found myself working with her a lot and as a result she seemed to think she had a lot of say over how I lived my life and who I chose to be friends with.
After a period of time I stopped pioneering due to bad health and depression and could hardly bear to go out on the ministry at all. I was in big trouble with the CO one month when I had only put in 2 hours. He had a private meeting with me after the service meeting one night and instead of any concern or sympathy he told me that my lack of enthusiasm for the ministry and feelings of depression were because I obviously had a guilty concience and needed to sort myself out and that my low hours were a sign of Jehovah's spirit not being with me or something like that. I was stunned. I was on the verge of tears but he just got up and walked away without a backwards glance. Never, ever did he or anyone else congratulate me for all the time I had spent as a full time pioneer!! Needless to say I never pioneered again after that and already had serious doubts about the 'Truth'.
Sorry if this has gone very slightly off topic, I just felt the need for a little rant .
Better now